Tbh my thinking was smoother today for a few… But it just showed me how i spent decades in thinking mostly bull**** , being tortured by paranoid thoughts, which were causing pain even in my body etc…
Is it common to have a screwed up thinking in sz? Its sad 
… I had no the smallest idea what to think on the reality for years. I just had some sick beliefs, who were making me acting not appropriately…
My pdoc was saying, that i cant think, cause i have mostly paranoid thoughts, but i guess its up to me now to fix that, cause the meds never fixed my thinking or the paranoia… Did you fought the paranoia by your own too mostly? Its a bit tiring this lonely struggle… I hoped in the past, that my meds will make better my thinking and the paranoia, but i have to work on my own on this now i find…
The bemol in my case is, that i was sick since very long, so to feel better it’ll be harder now…
Hugs to all
I’m so sorry that you were, and are beset with paranoid thoughts and thinking. I was too for over 33 years until I got on a good med combo. I was blessed I know. Paranoia was absolute torture for me every day.
I feel for you. And I will pray for you every day too. Just know that you are on my mind.
My intractable paranoia (and maybe yours too?) required multiple AP’s to treat it. Right now, I’m on 3 AP’s: Risperdal Consta, Geodon, and Seroquel. I’m also on a low dose of an AD: Celexa.
All of these meds completely eliminate my paranoia and depression.
Thank you, dear 
But i think, that i had thinking deficits, so only eliminating the paranoia wont fix my thinking… I had no clue what to think about the reality for years, about me, about the others etc… I also had a poor personality… The docs here in Bulgaria say, that in the sz, there is sometimes a degradation of the personality…Me, i even dont know which food i like or which person lol… I guess my thinking is more strange, i ignore whats wrong with it, but its wrong…
But i’ll be patient. Tbh, yesterday i took one klonopin and this always calms me and makes my thinking smoother…
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