So, I’ve noticed that, for whatever reason, if for example I text someone, I have anxiety and sz symptoms that escalate until I get a response. This also happens if I call and they dont answer. And email. THEN while I’m waiting I have to fight the urge to keep texting and calling a million, give or take, times until they respond. I feel freaking nuts, and I’d say ocd but I have sz and don’t really know what true ocd is. Racing thoughts to start, anxiety follows, then the voices about god knows what its different every time, and then when they respond via call, email, or text message I get this huuuge feeling of relief. I am sure this has something to do with sz because this used to just be a small annoyance and now its been overly severe.
Before I started having symptoms this didn’t bother me like it does now. When it happens the only thing that sort of helps is if I start cleaning or cooking and leaving my phone in the bedroom while I go to the kitchen/living room to clean…or cook but I find I just start obsessing over this once I decide what food to make. Going on a walk doesn’t help I’m too busy thinking about whether not I’m being ignored (and hearing bad things about why they’re not responding). I feel its become its own symptom. I find that I can only reach out to a select few family and friends or I end up in what feels like a mini episode.
Do you have issues that are similar?
What I really need is what can I do or realize to make it stop? I get upset with myself for acting like this but I can’t control this stuff. Please, any response will be helpful.