I’m stuck in an intrusive thought panic loop. It’s happened for a week now. I keep insulting people in my head or saying rape x person or please don’t rape me. These thoughts are vile and I need them to stop. I’m on 300mg olanzapine every two weeks and my doctor switched me from lorazepam to diazepam prn. Also I’m getting blurred vision from the olanzapine which is triggering intrusive thoughts but the consultant psychiatrist won’t let me switch to quetiapine as he wants me on a depot. I hate psychiatrists. They think they know everything.
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Don’t worry about intrusive thoughts. It’s your freaking brain you can think what you want with it. Just don’t physically do something dark.
Take the power out of those thoughts by destigmatizing them. Otherwise you’re putting too much mental energy on it and it ends up happening anyways. Like telling someone not to think about a pink elephant.
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I have severe OCD where my intrusive thoughts are at the forefront of the disorder. What’s helped me to manage them is to take an SSRI and go to therapy. But, you’ll still have them. The important thing to know about intrusive thoughts is that they are not you, they are part of a disorder.
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I had intrusive thoughts like that, and i’m a bit worried to say to you, that a high dose Zyprexa made them worse, a low dose was better, because i don’t know if you need a high dose for other reasons?
Only you and your pdoc knows.
Don’t be scared of your own thoughts, as @naturallycured says, it’s just thoughts.
My intrusive thoughts have nearly gone away, and when they pop up, i just let them pop up. Only when stressed and tired i get into a stupid discussion with my own thoughts…
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I also have intrusive thoughts it sucks
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I don’t get intrusive thoughts.
At times I’ve had thoughts that tended to over run my internal dialogue a little. Sometimes it lasted for a few minutes. I don’t think it ever happened very often. I’m sorry I don’t know how to free up your mind.
I’ve always been very very good at thinking about nothing and having nothing in my mind for very long periods of time.
Even now right as I’m typing I’m not thinking of words but for a scant few seconds before I type them. I don’t run a monologue all the time in my head.
I recommend trying to think of as little as possible, and when you have an intrusive thought don’t stress out about its tenor. I’ve had dark thoughts, and then as rebuttals to them I think… well that wasn’t very nice, or…I’m just having a mood right now.
You don’t have to be the person you think your thoughts make you.
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I’ve had OCD since I was a kid. I think it started when I was around 5 or 6. Used to compulsively wash my hands again and again (I thought i could catch illnesses that weren’t contagous, like cancer). My parents took me to the Dr. when they saw my hands started cracking from washing so much. Doc said its probably not worth medicating me since there’s a chance I’ll grow out of. My little brain figured out hmmm I shouldn’t do this or I’m going to get in trouble. Ended up coming up with little mental rituals that I internalized and would repeat. I’m in my late 30s and the rituals would come and go throughout my life. I had my first hospitalization for psychosis around 10 years ago, and now the OCD has turned into negative intrusive thought loops and persistent SI for the last 4 years. At times it feels like its impossible to build any self esteem that lasts more than a couple days at a time. I’ve tried doing things like meditation and some CBT stuff, but it doesn’t seem to stick. Feels like its hardwired into my neural pathways now. I know the brain can adapt and make new connections, but damn I wish there was an easy cure. If anyone has anything that worked for them, I’d appreciate hearing it. I’ve talked to multiple pdocs about it and the only options they give me are APs and ADs.
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I have OCD and recently I’ve been getting some pretty intense intrusive thoughts.
I can’t take antidepressants for it.
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