I’ve believed for two years I’m a really powerful person…
I don’t believe it as much now as the realities presented to me by my auditory hallucinations have contradicted the real world a number of times.
I just think ‘how much has this belief affected my personality’. Believing you’re super powerful person surely makes you act etc differently!
Now I believe a number of us are given different realities to others, almost as though the universe is showing off - when it can produce literally different realities amongst us, it does.
My question, how supported was your delusion by actual things happening in the real world? E.g my boyfriend told me he was a God (but said it poetically), and a scene on TV actually spoke to ME, telling me who I was.
Anyone else have these ‘supported’ delusions?
What’s your experience of a God delusion?
I bet you’ll get lots of feedback on this one - it’s a very common delusion. Finding what seems like “evidence” to support it is the name of the game with schizophrenia.
It just seems the universe creates this reality for many people!
We can all exist as God in our separate realities (the universe seems to like having more than one reality)
Have you ever felt SO supported that it was unquestionable?
I have for two years
I didn’t have the God delusion, but that’s basically how delusions work. Your brain sees patterns and interprets things so that the delusion seems utterly impossible to deny. A lot of it is cognitive bias, the very natural tendency of the brain to note things that seem important and support the predetermined conclusion, and ignore things that don’t support that conclusion. With sz, this tendency is heightened.
My most recent delusion like that was that any minor illness or injury I received was a forerunner to a similar but much more serious illness or injury that would happen to someone close to me. My kidney stones presaged my co-person’s acute kidney failure - same kidney. My twisted ankle presaged my friend’s major ankle break three days later - same ankle. My cavity presaged another friend’s broken tooth and emergency root canal later that day - same tooth!
These happenings were so frequent and so singular, whatever else could they mean? I came up with a theory that these incidents occupied a four dimensional space and would brush against me before impacting those close to me on this three dimensional reality.
But the thing is, it’s all coincidence. I had filtered out all the times that didn’t fit my belief. It’s like rolling a d20 but only noticing when it comes up 6 and so convincing yourself that it comes up 6 all the time.
I like to think I control the stock market because it seems like the opposite is true. If I have a difficult day, the stock market goes up. If I have an easy day, it goes down. Just a sometime coincidence like @Rhubot mentioned. Not always true. I just can’t resist playing the game of having power.
My “delusion” is long and complicated but basically i believed in multiple earthly realm gods, of which i was one, whom were subject to interaction with higher other-wordly gods (hallucinatory voices and images which guided me and i presumed, others).
I thought most people diagnosed sz probably were part of this paradigm. I mever called myself or others “gods” and it upset me when the psychiatrist who commited me used that term. However it is a terse way to describe my beliefs.
As far as support, i saw my thoughts and ideas stolen by a thousand mouths, magazines and news commentors. They were working to subvert my status as my influence spread telepathically through their minds. If i wanted something it happened, unless the “opposing” voices interferred. I made my way through college against insurmountable odds. I survived a dozen near death experiences. I couldnt kill myself no matter how hard i tried. “People” were like puppets to me. I had power. I was chosen by Them, my voices.
Thats how it seemed for years…
And I still struggle to let it go.
This thread is about the delusion that one is a deity or is otherwise gifted with supernatural powers. It’s not about any particular religion. That’s the best definition I can give you.
Ok, than I allowed to write my delusion - I think each life on this earth is moving towards Son of the God and He (son of the God) is moving perpendicular towards God. Each life and Son of the God have both body and mind but God have only mind. (its a deep psyco and doesn’t related to any magic.)
