I have this one delusion about the government. In the back of my mind, at all times, I have this belief that the government is slowly killing off me and all other veterans by putting poisons in the medications they dole out to us through the VA system. I believe that the Dr.'s, nurses and pharmacists at the VA have no knowledge of all this. It is ordered by the higher ups. I have watched too many of my good friends die or are now dying.
I deal with this belief by ignoring it because I have to take the meds they prescribe. I have no choice. I have no other way to get my meds. I’m just resigned to dying young probably.
I used to believe that public opinion was a trickle-down effect of whoever was in office. I still think that sometimes. But I think now that my belief was far overgeneralized.
I used to think that just last year, I was a special agent in the highest reaches of government. I was a ground operative because of my sense of direction/orientation and wilderness skills, as well as my mechanical abilities.
I trekked into the arctic on foot and fixed some generator.
on your point about dying young, maybe it’s shared lifestyle factors of veterans. like the food or something, my brother is a vet, he used to keep himself in good shape so his diet didn’t show, but now that he’s out he’s starting to age quickly. he also drinks quite a bit.
I probably have delusions about the government because I have no real idea of what they are doing. That is also true of everybody else. I also can’t figure out me.