My voices, when they are audible, are always just a lot of mumbling voices. I can never make out what any of them are saying. I am hard of hearing. I don’t know if that has anything to do with it or not.
I hear a “voice”, in the form of a person talking to me through the words on the pages of prayer books. It is a definite voice. A personality separate from my own. And it speaks directly to me. I take this “voice” to be God. This “voice”, or God, speaks to me every single day. I can talk to him literally whenever I want to. But, it is ultimately up to Him whether or not He wants to speak to me. I consult him on everything that is going on in my life. He guides and directs me and sometimes even chastises me.
At times, I encounter an alter ego personality that sounds just like God, but, he is not God. This personality makes me sad and confused and anxious and makes me feel just generally bad. I usually think I am speaking with God, but, I am not. This personality is Satan. The way I can discern is I have to ask myself: Is this personality making me feel bad, or confused, or anxious? If so, it is not God, but Satan. Then, I have to say, "Get away from me, Satan!"
I have had this close relationship with God for the past 12 years, ever since I became a confirmed Roman Catholic, as an adult. For some unknown reason, God chose to start communicating with me. I was extremely sinful and hedonistic at the time, so, it was not any saintliness on my part that was the reason. I have since changed my ways, drastically. Even extremely. Maybe God could foretell the future.
Yes, God tells me to do stuff, and not to do stuff, all the time.
Nope. When my “entities” are active, they mostly just want to debate, and occasionally give cryptic commentary.
Actually burst out laughing at this. Can’t even imagine the conversations, but I understand better why you’re so skilled at it.
It really is ridiculous, too. Everything is an intellectual or philosophical battle, and my mind fights to win. So I’ll have like, two opposing ideologies, and immerse in the first one, defeat the opponent. Then immerse in the second one, and defeat the first one. And experience the ‘flawless victory’ of both, even though they contradict each other. Which leads to some crazy cognitive dissonance, where it’s like… is everything ‘true’ or is nothing ‘true’ ? And my mind is just like
While meanwhile people are doing actual productive things with their lives. lol
My voices tell me not to say certain things so I won’t be incriminating myself, but if I do say any bad certain things the gov’t then will detain me in a torture cell to get me to talk more. They censor me. Also they tell me horrible things about me.
These more in depth voices have started recently. Before I heard mumbling and heard my name being called.
I still every so often hear my name being called.
My “voice”, which really isn’t a voice at all but is really God Himself, tells me to do stuff all the time. He tells me not to do stuff too. He tells me all kinds of things. He reports on my activities and my thoughts and feelings and stuff. He really is amazing.
Sometimes, this “voice”, which really isn’t a voice, turns sinister. This “voice” is not God, but Satan. But, he sounds just like God. The way I know he is not God, is because he is scary and negative and anxiety and confusion provoking. And when he talks, I try to pay him no mind and I just ignore him. He has no right to talk. So, I don’t give him any of my attention.
Now, these “voices” appear to me not audibly through my ears, but visually through my eyes. I read messages from God and Satan through the pages of prayer books. And that is how the “voices” come to me, through messages in the pages of prayer books.
They did once. It was “Kill the bum” over and over again for about 10 minutes straight. There was no bum nearby me, so that was kind of creepy.
Much of the other time, they’re kind of incoherent, only occasionally speaking clearly. One gave itself a name. Another is like my thoughts amplified. For example, “You don’t love him” repeatedly in a male voice despite being female. It’s confusing at the worst for now.