During the morning, I feel like crap. I don’t generally hallucinate at that time, though. Most of the day is also generally quiet. During the evening I get calm conversations and the occasional pleasant image. When I try to fall asleep, however, things get chaotic and random. Voices will say things that make no sense, I’ll see horrific images, or I’ll hear random noises like dogs barking or car alarms going off.
Do your hallucinations change when you try to go to sleep?
I’ll be fantasizing before I fall asleep. Then the images in my brain start to seem real, and they develop a life of their own. Lately I’ve been dreaming about tornados a lot. There are usually multiple tornados in my dream, and I will have what I think is good shelter, but then on subsequent review I think it might not be as safe as I think. The tornados have been coming closer lately.
Mine are different. When I’m watching tv in the sitting room and things are quiet my mind will listen for voices and its then when I will hear faint voices. They will leave when I get distracted enough. The same thing happens when I go to bed but their even more faint. I’m very lucky. I also have voices which come when I get stressed and their more distressing because I’m usually doing manual labor when these occur and they keep talking about what I’m thinking, again their faint but louder than the whispering and I can make out words here and there.
Thanks for the responses, it makes me feel better knowing I’m not the only one. I’ve become better over time at ignoring them as I fall asleep. It’s sometimes easier knowing I’ll have some peace and quiet in the morning.
That reminds me of one of the schizophrenia simulation videos I’ve seen online, that sounds rough I’m sorry you go through that I get so happy from every form of break I get from this disease, I wish everybody else could get them too.
I hope you get some relief too, and hopefully the forum helps. If I’m up I’ll usually be on the Say Anything thread and am always up for a chat if it would help.
i get the basic images if i have been outside all day skiing i’ll get little people on chair lifts… if i pick broccoli all day - psychedelic flashes of broccoli plants
I wonder the same thing, too. My dad essentially abandoned me and my sisters. My mom was too busy and depressed to deal with us. We were all teenage parents. We lived in a rotten neighborhood and often didn’t have basic things like quarters for the laundromat. I was the oldest to get married four months after I turned 18; my sisters married at 14 and 16.