Ever since I was about 25 and realised I dont live an ordinary life (and that I need someone to take care of me when Im unwell) Ive worried about what will happen when my mum is no longer with us
She always says “you dont need to worry about that for a long time”. But the day will come one day
Yeah i feel the exact same way. I don’t have an answer all i can say is that i’m literally in the exact same boat. My mom even says the same thing so yeah i get it
I’ve been thinking about something similar to it and feeling very trapped. My parents are sick ppl disguised as healthy ones living their sickness vicariously through me. I know I wouldn’t survive in the world without them. I wish I could get away. But they raised me to be reliant on them. Maybe one day I’ll have the balls to pack my bags and leave but then there’s too much I need. I feel I need them but they hurt me too I’m sad tonight. Then I feel it I complain I’m just not grateful enough but it’s tough
I’m terrified. I am currently unable to be independent. My husband takes care of me. I have no idea what I’d do without him. I’m so grateful to him. He’s the most loving man I’ve ever known in my life