the mirror can tell us a lot about ourselves but it is probably mostly buried deep in our unconscious mostly,
like i use to hate looking in the mirrors esp if it was in my bedroom but i realise now why i hated the mirrors so much,
i hated the mirrors then because i was symptomatic and i didn’t like what i saw in the mirror, i didn’t like who i was so i think that is one of the reasons i didn’t like it and also it was like magic, like another world where we are all backwards or some sort of dimension hiatus that we might get trapped in or lost.
now i have a huge mirror in my bedroom and its really cool haha doesn’t bother me at all .
Always hated mirrors. Part of it was because symptoms, like you. I remember looking in it in hs and not even seeing the other half of my face, to me it wasn’t my face it was this evil angel that had “taken up space” there to antagonize me. Yeah. I always felt like my reflection was dangerous and if I looked away could see it warping (which is actually a normal scientific phenomenon).
Now I’m still trying to overcome the fear that if I sleep facing my mirror my reflection will come out and kill me. I can never leave my back turned to one. Sigh.
When I had a job that involved getting dressed up, I used a mirror.
But I was young and thin.
Now it does not matter how I look as I just deal with customers by email and phone.
Never did like the eye feedback of looking into your own eyes. ekkkk.
I look in the mirror at times to see if i how sane or insane i look. I especially look at my eyes because it tells me how far gone i may be. Sounds like some kind of punishment but i like to check in with myself to determine how i appear or come across to others,
I don’t like mirrors, I always have trouble when I’m ill, one thing or another it shows something scary, even if I’m not seeing things. At the moment it’s shadows in the room behind me when I look in it but when I thought I was dead. I saw myself decomposing,before I’ve not recognised myself. That sort of thing…
I used to hate looking at my eyes in the mirror for years in my twenties. When I was 19 I had several bad trips on LSD and it made my pupils permanently huge. They’ve never gone back to normal to this day. The last trip triggered my initial schizophrenia.
Its pretty trippy to look into the mirror when your on drugs. Especially at the pupils. Sometimes I can control dilation I used to just stare and watch my eyes go back and forth. Mirrors are just a tool to see yourself nothing more. When I look at them I get more interested in the nature of light itself. It is moving in every direction possible in every location possible. That is pertty trippy and very hard toi wrap ones head around.
I talk to myself in the mirror in a very critical way. I like seeing my muscles all looking like a gorilla though, and I like shaving and keeping my hair and sideburns neat. I keep a military regulation buzz cut but I have long side burns so people can tell that I’m not in ROTC. Back when my sideburns were in regulation people thought I was in ROTC.
i kind of like mirrors…when i was younger i would practice my acting in front of them…so much so that i probably would’ve found it easier to act against nothing than a real person which is kind of odd really. i used to like looking at myself and studying my reflection…what would i change? what was i happy with? when i first got on meds i loved my new body…it was chunky in all the right places with a nice waist…now i’m older i’ve put on too much weight and am trying to get it off over the next couple of months. obviously i’ll never be 21 again i mean christ, i’m nearly 41 but i’m ok for a 41 year old. sure there are some things i’m not happy with but they can change, if i have time and money…nothing drastic just weight loss and toning up, if possible at my age. i still kind of like mirrors when i have make up on or a spray tan, my hair is done and i’m wearing ok clothes instead of sweats and baggy tops all the time…i spent up till a few months ago, most of my time in muck boots and sweats to take the dogs to the woods…in winter and autumn it’s pretty muddy so you can’t wear anything smart…especially when new puppies come bounding up to you and jump up and you get covered in wet mulch. yeah, sometimes i like the mirror…i sometimes search my eyes and wonder where i went…i used to be loud, fun and entertaining…i guess i still can be in fits and spurts if i know you well but that person doesn’t come out everyday and i miss her when she’s gone…are you in there? i ask my reflection. still breathing? still alive and kicking? maybe one day i’ll see her smiling back at me…then again maybe i won’t. who knows? until then i’ll keep on looking in that mirror just in case i catch a fleeting glimpse of her. good post.
i never use to like the mirror much but i think i know why now.
growing up i never really looked in the mirror and i never really ever looked good or anything,
i had old cheap clothes and i never really looked at myself as a nice looking person, i was not self conscious like so many people were though like women about their image and i wasn’t ever the most popular boy at school but nobody really bothered me, it didn’t matter i didn’t have nice clothes,
there was only one time in school that i was bothered about my clothes and thats when two girls put chewing gum down my back and my old jumper was stuck to my old jacket and they were both ruined which sucked.
after school i started earning money but i would buy cigs with it and drink and i was always dirty from working in the garage so i had even less reason to like the mirror, every time i saw myself i had to scrub my face and it was pretty hard to get off, i hated it, so i’ve had a bad relationship with the mirror lol,
recently i’ve been trying to get into fashion and i’ve been looking at myself in the mirrors at clothes shops and before i go out in the morning, i’m a little bit more self conscious now i think, (not extreme) but i just want to look good now,
i think because i’ve been going to college and everyone is looking good that i wanted to look good as well and just join in, wanted to be part of the crowd haha.
so i think thats why i am more at ease looking in the mirror now than before,
but nothing has helped me as much as my medication which has helped make all of this possible for me, i had to maintain my stability and the med is good now as in it is not as restrictive as my last med i was on.
