Just wondering if you can always tell when somethings not real, like have insight into it.
My community has a lot of hate monger types who went over to church and follow orders to bother SSDI recipients about being āon the checkā after mental careā¦Is preach stalkingā¦
We also have āguided conversationsā happen where small group of people at a table are all psychotic and just talk crazy talk from the voices they hear. Was sitting in restaurant and āthere is one of THOSE in the room. We have to talk like this.ā and just went off talking nuts.
I can read lips and I do have people walk up to me and talk crazy, call me names, insult and me (in my hometown this is normal behavior) and in new cities I have strangers come to me and talk about how things work in this community (work/social expectations/problems)ā¦I really do not even pay attention to much said in public because thinking about it or getting annoyed just gives it more power. I have worked in place that trashed me a couple times so this is where I get concerned, sometimes a place has been nothing short of a scam trap for anyoneā¦I JUST DO NOT PAY ANY ATTENTION TO THIS BEHAVIOR FROM STRANGERS EXCEPT AT WORK. If I get a whole room full anywhere out in public (which can happen in social settings, small towns or churches), I would slip out to the bathroom and just not come back because someone might try to do something problematic to you.
Otherwise, there is NO intelligence behind the people thought broadcasting in cities. Itās barking dog. You can tell your story a couple times in smaller communities to assertive people and get some relief/respect eventually sometimes if no one knows you are on the checkā¦But in city, is barking dog you just should not answer.
If approached by group of kids threateningly, DO NOT RESPOND. You will be fine. This does mean you are in the wrong neighborhood and should leave soon.
One except is someone trying to pick you up by talking to you about something private. These can be a good fixup with someone who knows the local schizo suffering or all weirdos. These can be good relationships but these are very āconditionalā people who will sometimes dump a person because they are a part-time psychotic who will NEVER admit thisā¦If you are called a headcase by this person, I would ditch him/her. But is good to try talking to some of these to know if you meet good ones or nuts, and handle rest accordingly later.
Other times, my voices sound like they are outside meā¦Works best to ignore it all. Itās been 12 years of constant mental noise, working and not, medicated too. Iām kind of numb now to it all as even local neighbor farmer shoots off gun in neigbhorhood if anyone who thinks āsomething is wrong with themā moves in so Iām pretty deaf unless Iām in work mode.
I no longer work in public much any more due to some messed up people I have met in the community who stalk people at work and no way to get this to stop. Since I worked in life/death situations for customers, just not worth the risk any longer when workload is insane and sometimes crazy customers try to swarm the place or play meā¦I work at home now which works best anyway as I can work around the insomnia symptoms.
It sounds like you are being gang stalked by peopleā¦Iāve had a bit of this itās very hard for me to cope with.
I lived in KC for a year not long ago and took apartment in iffy area. I got 10+ teens threatening me about my āsecurityā while I was out walking around for exercise. Just happened a couple times since I did not answer. Military live in the neighborhood, one who had apartment before me apparently got hostile. The kids scared him out of area in about 4 months. Looks like he freaked out too guessing from condition of apartment who I moved into it ā doggy crap in corners, BIG hunting knife on door, filthy bathroom, food leftā¦He had roommate too. (You know how it goes broke when you need to move, clean up the place for discount. It was nastyā¦but rest of contents were kinda telling. Would have passed it up had I not been desperate to leave place before it.)
Actually, I was living alone there and itās just too creepy with all the guys who want dates cause sometimes they try to scam an SSDI to have his family babysit his crazy girl and she cannot even go outside again. Neighborhood was chasing some back inside.
I didnāt stay long when I found out about thisā¦ Was within block of the drug house and just did not want to deal with the bullets flying. Had sniper shooting outside when I walked sometimes but was nice enough to keep it to couple blocks awayā¦Some of the neighborhood stressor stuff is just bad joking around. I went walking around a lot alone and so did other lady joggers.
Some just answer the gang stalkers by telling them they ājust came here to work at ___________ā and they got left alone better.
Wow. Sounds pretty rough!
Sad. Liked area as employment was fantastic. Worked for 10 years before in holes close to going under & nutty eventually, was so nice to see normal for a whileā¦This kind of stuff is just sign it is not good idea to stay according to other victims of schizo I knew. Had to give up on idea of working around there and even living WAY outā¦Looking for other options.
What happened with your situation?
All I know is one minute I was doing well and then the next everything changed, lost everything and everyone I care about. Isolated so they can torture me with their games. Iām currently dealing with the doctors; cautiously though as I believe they are trying to frame me for some things that I didnāt do. At the moment itās a bit of cat and mouse but Iām trying hard to be the cat at the moment as I donāt want to be eaten!
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Wow, Iām amazed that people behave that wayā¦Iāve never told an employer about my situation, and have only told my immediate family members and absolute closest friends because Iām afraid of how they might react. Iām considering telling potential employers, though, because so far I havenāt been able to keep a job but Iām hoping I could if they provided āaccommodations,ā like maybe giving me tasks that donāt involve people very often or letting me take short breaks if things get too bad?
To answer the OP, I canāt really ever tell the difference. If Iām not looking straight at someone and can see their mouths move, I try to assume it isnāt realā¦
It depends on what Iām seeingā¦ or whatās going on. If itās just hitting one of the sensesā¦ then itās easier to ignore and rationalize.
The floating cat and stuff like thatā¦ not realā¦
All consuming fireā¦ I still think itās realā¦ especially if I can also smell the smoke and hear it and see itā¦
Subtle things like thinking I heard a friend say something meanā¦ or seeing bruises on meā¦ menacing people out of the corner of my eyeā¦ thatās harder to ignore and erase away.
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most of the time i know it is not thereā¦but in another dimension. 
but sometimes i see things and have to look again/investigate to make sure it is real or not real ( in this dimension. )
it can get confusing.
for instance i walked into the kitchen this morningā¦there was a dead person on the floor and dead people outside in the gardenā¦that was an easy one.
seeing things figures at night in and outside the house a bit more difficult. 
take care 
Yeah, I think Iām like that too. If everything else seems normal, I can tell. But if itās triggering multiple senses so I think of myself as in a situation, I wonāt know itās not real until afterwards.
You are serious here, right?
dear Lord 
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I can tell most of the time. If something is incredibly unlikely, I donāt bother with it. But keep in mind that āmost of the timeā means sometimes I actually canāt tell what is real or not.
But for the most part, yes.
What I find interesting is when it is real but the mind says that it canāt be real. Iāve been watching for months and months ( since there is an endless supply) the police brutality videos. But when I see the horrific things that police do to people, my mind says that it canāt be real, itās just too horrific to be real.
A police officer tells a black fellow to lie down face forward to the ground, and the fellow proceeds to do as told. But then the cop kicks him in the face just as his face was about 2 feet from the ground. The fellow was knocked out instantly and suffered multiple broken facial bones. He was lucky not to have been killed as a result of the impact. That was what he received for doing what he was told to do. A second cop nearby also saw nothing wrong with this.
If that guys head was a football, due to the severity of the impact, the football would have crossed half the football field. So when a cop canāt tell the difference between the value of someones head and the value of a football, it seems impossible to me for such a thing to truly be.
Anyhow, my mind says that no cop could be that insane and be a cop at the same time.
Is such a cop in touch with reality ?
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I always knew my hallucinations werenāt real.
I did however understand completely that my brain had been tapped.
Iāve been screwed with pretty bad. They can make you hallucinate amongst other things.
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yeah i was being seriousā¦
i see hell below my feet, people clawing at my jeans and boots every other dayā¦
my first delusion i remembered the other week, when i was 7, was ā hell horses ā 
they galloped down the main landing upstairsā¦if they caught you , they ate you up whole, and you were stuck inside their bodiesā¦ā¦
i was dealing with this ā ā ā ā and abusive parentsā¦and siblingsā¦fun timesā¦and no one helped meā¦it was ā ā ā ā ā ā !?! 
having sz is like being in your own personal ā horror movie '.
take care
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Sounds like you have a similar struggle as Wesley Willis
He called his episodes āHell Ridesā and frequently saw demons. He has some pretty rad music haha
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Yeah, i thought so. So much similarities makes you think that they are stealing your ideas.
Lol that was some dark inappropriate humor. Iām actually sad and terryfied.
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donāt worryā¦i like your dark humourā¦
i am sending you two angels to protect you.
one sits by your side ā¦and will give you hope 
the other walks ahead of you protecting you and guides you on the right pathā¦ 
and here is the sun 
to brighten your day.
take care
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I only have two creepy emo hugs left. 
And literary out of pathetic words to comment. 
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