I feel like I am obsessed with all the wrongs that happened to me in my past. do any of you harp on it too?
what do you do to stop it?
judy
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All the time. I think it’s just human nature though. Times the greatest healer so is talking about it more. Musics another one I use and so is writing when the muse hits me.
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YES, I still struggle with this sometimes. I reposted here my reply from another thread titled, “Talking to Voices Again”, because learning to forgive has been a big part of the struggle for me.
For me, the torture became so intense from trying to sort what could be constructed from what must be real, that I came to a point where I had to choose to forgive ALL of it. I chose to forgive… to let it all go. I placed my trust in God, and finally found healing for my mind and for my soul.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.” - Proverbs 3:5-6
Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. " - Matthew 11:28
Sometimes it’s so hard to let go of the memories, but keep pressing on towards your goal of regaining your peace again. “STOP, DROP, and PRAY” has been working for me when I feel that my mind is on fire.
“And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” - Philippians 4:7 (KJV)
BANG in a big way. I think it’s just the nature of our brain… It just grips on to something and won’t let it go. It’s magnified…
For me… it’s not just the past wrongs done to me… it’s the perceived things that my brain thought was done to me too… My brain still brings up the time I was trying to have a serious conversation with my cousin and he was ignoring me because he just figured out how to levitate. (My sneaky brained thinking)
Another thing I have a hard time with thought is things I did to my family. I dwell hard on the past guilt.
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thanks for your replies. I’ve been trying hard to let go of it all so I can go on with my life. some good ideas from you thanks.
judy
For everything from the past that is upsetting- think of a good memory also. That will help balance things out.
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i think it is totally normal…but a waste of effort.
fill your life with joy…then the bad memories and the hurt can’t squeeze past all the good things.
take care
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thank you. joy is elusive but not unattainable.
sometimes I actually feel lucky. luck to be alive and physically pretty well. there’s a whole lot I can do and focusing on the disability won’t make it go away.
when I fall in the “sink hole” it just feels like all is tough luck for me. but really, my life has beauty in it too.
judy
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