I always tell myself that the thoughts and voices are liars. It took me a long time to realize that.
What you have to remember is no matter how much you feel like acting on the impulse is that the thoughts and voices are LIARS. They do not have anyone’s best interest in mind.
You are a precious addition to this world and if you killed yourself the world would lose your light. Your mother obviously loves you and his the meds to keep you safe. Good for her!
The world needs you. The voices are liars. You are a special human.
Thank you for talking to me too. It’s funny you say you feel guilty all the time, I do too. I never could figure out why. Even when I know I haven’t done anything wrong I still feel it. You say you fear you’ll go to the dark side, have you ever hurt anybody, ever? You seem too nice, I don’t think you have to worry about that.
“Voices” ., Talk and do everything to help., No matter the cost. If they do lie, it’s a trick!, To lead you away from your
Endless mistakes,_. Commonsense is a solidr rock. Hold right and dance!.
@anon4362788 It is hard to believe the beings are liars, partially because they’re not just beings, they’re intertwined with my thoughts. They have been trying to get me to kill myself for a long time. I feel like the world needs for me to die, but in a testament to free will God has made it my own choice. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I’m so stressed.
@Leaf I’m sorry you feel that guilt too, it sucks so bad. I am so afraid of being a bad person. Sometimes I try to force guilt on myself to prove that I am not. I have hurt people before, I have said and done some pretty mean things as I’ve grown up. It is part of my darkness I think. The worst thing I’ve done is make fun of this freshman while I was a senior. I apologized, but it was wrong and I still feel guilty about it. This was in October 2017.
@Skims That’s what my mom says, but they are not hallucinations.
It’s a lie… Don’t kill yourself… I had a dream sum witch sent me to hell through hypnosis. The only thing that saved me was my faith in Jesus Christ. The donkey who plants these things seems to be a bald black witch. The darkness can’t take my body
In the dreami saw the face of the devil and I was praising Jesus in he’ll… He kicked my self out
But in hell I saw towers eroded and there was emptyness all around with the wind pushing me back as i tried to walk for word.
The more I praised Jesus the harder the wind blew.
And then I got spit back God had mercy on me bc I was asleep. And those who go to hell it’s written will not praise God.
I do sometimes hear the ring but bc there are demons that try to crawl into my ears… They attach to my forehead a lot. No interdemension just black magic trying to off me BREAK GLASS
That is a scary dream I’m sorry you had it. I had a dream that a demon latched onto me and I think it was real. The demon made me depressed and anxious. I think the demon is gone but maybe not. Only the beings are making me feel this way now.
I had a voice telling me to put a screwdriver through my ear and into my brain. I realized later in the hospital that it wasn’t for the purpose of killing myself but rather to dig out a microchip that had been planted there by my work. I was fully planning on killing myself on my thirtieth birthday, though.
If it helps, I used to think this way and my mind was completely tied up in knots over it all.
You should find some ‘grounding’ techniques if you can. It may get you through the worst and help you move on from it. I just settle now that although these things may be true, in this life at least it has no value and needs to be ignored.
I am sorry your mind is going through this, I sympathise with your situation.
Yes I get thoughts/voices from Alien telling me to cut myself or kill my husband but although they are distressing I tell Alien to shut up. I distract myself with music if he’s persistent.
My mom wants me to constantly be distracting myself, but all I want to do is think. People keep telling me that’s bad for me and I guess they’re right. Things are hard right now.
@Sardonic There is nothing more real in the world to someone than a delusion, thats the hardest part about this. I remember distinctly sitting back relaxed with my arms crossed calmly explaining to my family i was christ, i wasnt halucinating and i wasnt delusional. Looking back i realize that everyone telling me i what i was experiencing wasnt real didnt work because it IS REAL. We do really have profound and impactful experiences. They are very difficult to ignore and i honestly believe they do have some meaning. What i came to realize is that my interpretation of the experiences was at fault. Because of certain circumstancial and coincidental “evidence” i choose to believe i was the son of god. Had i been raised differently or been living somewhere else i might have interpreted it differently. Now i know youre hearing explicit voices, but maybe your reason why is a little out of tune?
Maybe if they didn’t have to work to escape it would be different. I didn’t just start hearing voices. They came to me in my thoughts because that’s the only way they could come to me. The beings are entangled with my thoughts you see, they are different. They may even be thoughts. I’m not sure. But they’ve been trying to get me to kill myself for years before I ever thought they were beings. There is a reason for that. No one can save me from my fate. Death is the only way. They say I’m not sick. I don’t even know why I’m still here. I’m lonely I guess. I need someone to talk through this with. I thought I was sick but maybe not.
