I’m getting better as I have done a lot of work on anger management. Anger = stress = more symptoms = eventual damage to my insight. Anger is a first domino and I have to do whatever I can to keep it from getting tipped.
I can recommend workbooks to anyone interested. They really do help.
I walk away when my spouse is upset because he has a tendency to direct his frustrations at me. I can easily get enraged is misdirected frustration on me.
Before I got sick I got angry out of nowhere. Then I got depressed then got angry again and had other symptoms later. I was angry for years until I started taking Invega Sustenna injections then after a while it went away.
Everyone says it is impossible to get me angry. Colleagues or friends or my ex. They are kind people though.
My family very easily triggers me. There is plenty reason to be triggered. As they are manipulating and threatening my kid and all. Passive agressive behaviour leads to me wanting to throw rocks at them. But getting angry does not help. It makes me look like the bad guy. And feel like the bad guy. Cause whatever they do, it is still my response. I don’t want my personality corrupted like that. Their behaviour is often intended to arouse anger…which is exactly why I should shut up. And not take the bait.
Minimal contact, and only by e-mail, is a very relaxing solution. But I want to know anger management too…in case there is a situation like that again. With them or someone else.
I.get much much to angry when I get psychosis and that’s the main resson why I’m on large quantities of meds but let me stain in the same sentence that I have never done anyone anythings. And I’ve never been on forced meds.
Psychosis mostly does the opposite to me…I flee or freeze or hide or fawn. I start to apologize to abusers. I’ve told my pedophile uncle how wonderful a person he was for saying sorry (one sentence, after decades)…and how sad for him, that I hurt his life so much, by politely speaking up. I was forced on meds…but for being scared and catatonic.
I was never physically violent (with the exception of self-defence). I can be temperamental when triggered…but rather fiercely discussing with arguments. Or screaming to ■■■■■■■ stop hurting my kid and me. Or being very direct. Or such.
Marian I’m so sorry for.you that you had to go through all that…I myself am.victim of economic abuse.from some people who called themselves friends. So now I’m totally alone and don’t pay bills for others.