My increased Latuda and Lithium are starting to work, but I still don’t feel how I felt before I became ill. I can’t describe it. I’m always scared, and I feel dizzy and spacey, and it all feels surreal, like a dream.
I know many of you are doing well. Does it feel like you did before you became sick?
I think differently for sure. I don’t have as many racing thoughts and associated worry as previous to meds. My thoughts are slower for sure but that isn’t a bad thing. I think now…ahh…this was how most normal people think but I’ve learned over the years that even normal people can think funny things too!
So. No I feel different to before I got sick but the changes aren’t bad for me!
It’s a SNAFU here. But most of my days are like that.
No means no no no.
I feel like I’m grasping at normal, but will never reach it.
I’m fairly stable now and I do not feel the same as I did before I got sick. I think I just see things differently now
The lines between when I became ill and was ok are so blurred. I think this is because I was heavily into drugs, then I got really sick. I guess I never have known a time when I fell fine or normal, so this is normal for me.
I am still recovering as I got forced into going out to an unfamiliar place shopping and I was made so ill from it, I had to go to bed with a Lorazepam last night it was so bad. That kinda thing reminds me things are not ok.
If I stick to my routine I think I cope quite well. If anything unexpected happens then that really throws me out and it can take days to recover.
To be honest, i don’t know what my normal is…i’d been unwell for a few years. My fault, because when i was started on treatment i didn’t end up staying on it. I doubted that i had any problems so i’d just stop taking my medication. However, i can state that right now is the best i’ve felt in a long time. Don’t know if it’s “normal” or like i was before but it doesn’t matter. I’m stable and i feel alright.
I’m not sure I’ve ever been normal. If 100 is normal I think I started at 80 then at some point, mid/late teens, dropped down to about 65-70.or lower. I think I constantly hover around that level now.
There are moments, perhaps a day when I feel the goodness of normalcy. These moments are usually short lived but when they occur, I feel lucid, energetic, and rational. It may just be the manic part of the illness coming through, but when it happens I try to catch it and bottle it.
Thank you all for your responses.
I feel good. Like as good as I’ve ever felt. Frankly I didn’t feel normal past the age of 11 or 12. But now I feel better than at least since I was 10. And the memories are so blurry of that too that it’s a brand new feeling.
I don’t feel normal cos I either have small delusions or voices, even on meds.
Some days I wake up and I hear nothing, no voices at all. That’s sanity for me.
I’m not sure what normal is for me. I’ve been dealing with this stuff for so long, it’s like i can’t really remember not dealing with it. I’ve just learned to go with it.
@Jonnybegood
How long have you felt good? How did you get there? Did you do only meds or therapy also?
I’ve been feeling progressively better since I got on meds. That was in January of 2014. I’ve had some setbacks but meds have put me in a positive direction. Therapy has helped too. I’ve been in therapy since 2009 and it helped but wasn’t able to fully integrate it till I got on meds fully in 2014. I feel I’ve found the formula and balance for now. I’ve been feeling especially good the past week or two.
What is normal? I’m so used to sza that I don’t know anything else but on my meds I do feel relatively stable.
That’s great @Jonnybegood!
Thanks @FlyingPurplePeopleMeeter you help me with your encouragement you’re a great support!!
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