I sometimes have nightmares where my illness is as bad as it was in the past again. I had one tonight. There were a bunch of kids over at our house and they wanted help with their homework but my paranoia was so strong I had to first find a room that was “safe” for us to work in, then I had to turn on all of the lights and close any doors in that room.
By the time I ended up getting a room all set up the kids had left. I was all alone. I was so scared in the dream.
I used to always feel there was something dangerous lurking around the corner or hiding invisible somewhere.