Do you ever do this?

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I’ll be reflecting about the past and I’ll say “damn why did I do that!?!?!” Then I say “you’re an idiot Jon, you really should kill your self”. And then I’m like “no that’s bad, don’t say that”

I have this same inner monologue often.

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I do that too. Exactly the same thing, actually. glad to hear I’m not alone!

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Everytime I do something dumb I hear “kill yourself” or I say it

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Ofc! I think, everyone do… When you become older, you understand fails that you did in youre past. So its normal.

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Oh yes, i do it all the time. In my case, something bad or shameful will pop in my mind, and i will have jerking of the body and will tell myself aloud “kill yourself” and similar things.
I think it’s some form of ocd, though i never got that diagnosis.

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Hmmm you may be right. OCD was my first issue. It does seem kinda ocd. Like “oh I messed up so bad it’s so catostrophic such anxiety…oh I should kill myself…never mind that though!!” Out of impulse almost

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Yep I do that too but I found a way to break out of that inner dialogue by asking myself istead of ‘no that’s bad, don’t say that’ rather: ‘I f*cked up immensely and deserve to be punished fiercely, am I correct?’ (and if i explain further than I’ll be banned from this forum (because it’s borderline pseudo-science))

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It’s common in my daily life

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I asked my psychiatrist about when i do it, but repeating what a voice says. He just commented i was mimicking… nothing more

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I don’t do voices but do this…I had a strong central ‘thought’ or ‘voice’ that commented on everything I did but now I just go through a time where it’s like tourettes! I say it out loud and it’s always negative!

Mine is like ‘paul you dumb c**t’ It’s annoying but I do it often…it really is about a lot of my symptoms!

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I used to do that often. Everything I did wrong, even really dumb stuff like dropping something, would lead me to the immediate “just kill yourself now” thoughts even thought I had no intention of following through or interest in killing myself. It was just like an automatic reaction. After years of therapy and amusing my self talk I don’t do it anymore.

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