I want to. But my gf doesn’t. So i dont either. Don’t want to do it all myself while she actively makes messes regularly and doesnt clean up. So the place is a mess most of the time. Until it gets so bad that i have to end up doing it myself.
I live in a small, two bedroom apartment with one roommate. We’re responsible for cleaning our own rooms and we trade off cleaning the bathroom and the kitchen. He will do the bathroom for three months and I’ll clean the kitchen for three months, then we trade. In the living room we just pick up after ourselves and vacuum every two weeks and in the kitchen we clean up after ourselves and do the dishes after every meal. This place has always been real easy to keep clean.
I like keeping my apartment clean, as I grew up in a hoarding environment. I know that when I start letting my place get messy that I’m not doing well mentally. Which is really funny since most times I only take a shower once a week!
I’m putting my all into cleaning the house right now. It would be a dream come true for me to get caught up with it and the yard work. My voices tell me how they’re gonna punish me or I’m gonna be punished by Extreme unbearable feelings if I take care of the house and clean it and organize it and do yard work. I admit I have schizophrenia and this is a symptom of both positive and negative symptoms of schizophrenia. If you’re denying you have schizophrenia at all I don’t know but this is a delusion. Where you’re believing something very psychotic. I am still psychotic now but I’m not believing it so it’s not a delusion to me about my voices telling me I’m going to be punished with extreme unbearable feelings. I wish you well and you overcome this and get your house clean. You want to do it obviously which is motivation. I don’t wanna shame you in anyway but I am struggling with this and overcoming it. It’s not my fault I have schizophrenia so I wouldn’t say it’s anybody’s fault they have schizophrenia.