say something about our personalities. like ive only ever had the persecutory ones and the somatic ones. and it makes me wonder if its cause i have an anxious type of personality. so those are the kind my mind created. what u guys think? i think it has to mean something or else we would jump all over the place but my themes have always been very consistant everytime with only minor changes in details and people involved. its been the along the same lines for over 20 years
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a dear pdoc of mine once said, “when you stop your meds and become psychotic again, you take off exactly where you left off each time”. I believe that…my being a christian definitely shaped what I believed…it was a religious themed delusion for seven months…never again…
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yeah i’d say thats true for me too
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My anxiety has anxiety.
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Ive had the persucatory, somatic and grandiose and paranoid delusions. Im not sure what other types there is.
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My themes changed several times over the last 13 years but id say thats because i dismantled a lot of core beliefs so the delusions/hallucinations would change to something else.
There was
God/ Devil religious themes
Alien themes
Supernatural themes (afterlife)
Science based themes
Grandiose businesses from aliens
The 2nd last theme was a grandiose business/celebrity career
The last one was like mixed mania with violent hallucinations and paranoia about roommates which was perpetuating the hallucinations for months.
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mine have involves stalking, government, framing, hacking, ghosts (in a persecutory way) and aliens (in a somatic way) and then the somatic (my heart was removed, and i had worms living under my skin). but most of that list i made before ghosts were all combined into one thing and believed at the same times. so they all fall into two types.
the only one im not sure what type it would be was when i thought god was telling people my thoughts. put i think in a way thats persecuory not sure tho. oh and also thinking i can make things happen with my mind or that i am psychic or that people are reading my mind (i think that is actually all the same type) so maybe 3 types. dont know if those are delusions tho or what type they are.
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I found that when i look back. The delusion seems to bring on the hallucination or the somatic sensations.
Thats why after an episode id try to dismantle what might of been affecting it. Its a lot of work but it has helped me over the years.
Like i still have one small delusion thats hard to shake that i have some special connection to advanced universal knowledge and the world trys to relay it to me through voices. So that can come out a number of ways because it leaves the possibilities open.
I know its probably not true but man its the longest lingering one of them all.
I had to to basically take a very conservative view of anything supernatural whether it was religious figures, ghosts, afterlife, other unproven life forms.
Basically anything like this that cant be 100% proven or disproven I pretty much just avoid.
Thats helped me in the longterm.
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i have that problem too. and also found i try to be very skeptical of everything and that helps. and tyring not to trust myself too much and have a little doubt.
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I think it’s weird that in 2018 I had persecutory delusions where I also “heard” doctors behind the walls (hallucinations) talking about how I was going to die if I didn’t get an internal defibrillator implanted and now, 6 years later, my doctor is telling me that I might need to get one put in. That’s just too freaking bizarre!
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My old pdoc says delusions were like a laughing mirror (not sure how to say that in English…the kind of mirror that distorts your image as a fun attraction). It reflects back your deep anxieties and ideas in a distorted way.
I’m highly ashamed of the choices I have made in life, and how these harmed other people. I’ve also been scapegoated quite a bit. In my delusions this comes up in a very extreme and metaphoric way.
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i think the english version of that is called a “fun mirror”. thats an interesting way to explain delusions.
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