I had a similar experience as you took the meds only because they help with the stress . I didn’t believe the doc eather that’s part of the illness for me, denying that I’m ill. I got better ,quit the meds and everything started all over again. I guess I’m a slow learner because I had to stop my meds a second time ,same thing happened again. Take your meds and be honest with your doctor. It’s a strange illness to have.
When I’m not doing well I tend to start thinking that black cars belong to a secret agency that is spying on me to see if I get my powers in this world, and that white cars are heavenly forces trying to protect me.
Prior, I used to see, hear and smell friends and family members burn to death, see people around the corners (record was a cop 6 mines away with 2 friends driving in the rain, wipers off) currently some people outside of my household, I’ll have a never-ending thing with some people where it will either visual flashes to throw my coffee at them or other things along the lines. If I’m irritated at myself for failing, I’ll get the same about letting my family out of the car and crashing it at high speeds. Depending on severity, an hour or week to calm down while keeping my routine. Never do they target my wife or kids.
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I have 0 insight
I know it feels real to me too 
the longer you deal with it if you study it you can live a normal life but you have to accept that it is. It may be an illness maybe it’s real it’s real to me, but you have to learn to live with it. If you talk about it they lock you up but just because it scares people. There’s not really an organization it’s just chaotic, it seems like it could be a setup but normal neurotypicals don’t think like that usually, they just watch tv. I have many theories of what is going on.
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Its defently a sz delusen.
I had somthing similar for a year i thoth a bunch of students of phsycology follwing my and put an electronic chip in my back…all this with hallusinations of them puting sevalion cameras in my hous an mor