Part of my delusion is that I believe I have a camera in my eye, microphones/speakers in my ears, equipment to monitor my brain and equipment to monitor my body all inserted. It would do me no good to get physical tests because I wouldn’t believe the tests. I just bought a book on Amazon about delusions written by a Psychiatrist. It got me to wondering how many people have delusions where they believe they have technology implants. BTW: all of the monitoring and mind control takes place via satellite for me. Anybody else have this type of bizarre delusion or is it just me?
P.S. I take meds, go to pdoc, tdoc and my delusion is getting better over time
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You aren’t alone…I thought satellite cameras in the sky were following my every move.
You’ll pull out of this delusion. The logical side of your brain is arguing with the creative side of your brain right now. The logic will triumph with proper professional help and medication.
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Thanks @Patrick I hope it goes away (fingers crossed). BTW: the book is callers “Suspicious Minds: How Culture Shapes Madness”. I’m looking forward to reading it.
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I remember getting a heart scan and they had to inject a contrast medium in my vein. At the time I thought it was a tracking solution.
I have an implanted cardiac pacemaker. Have had one since the age of twelve. I’ve suffered repeated delusions over the years that it is a control device implanted in me by hostile aliens and that it houses and controls nanotech in my body. Obviously not the case in reality, it’s just a medical device that keeps me alive.
So grateful for modern meds that help me push this crap back into the attic of my mind where it belongs.
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I used to think that satellites were watching me when the cameras weren’t but then my wife pointed out to me it doesn’t have to be that complicated. They can just bug your phone. It already has a camera and a microphone on it.
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Used to think there might be a chip in my brain put in there by aliens/government/both but got over it thankfully 
But still cover all the cameras in my house 
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I received 3 shots in the hospital 2 they told me what they were. I signed for2 the third one I was sore for days. Never did tell me what it was for. Always thought it was some kind of microchip.
I was a TOTAL normie for 46 years and then out of NOWHERE I suddenly adamantly believe I am the primary subject in a world wide brain study with all kinds of equipment in my body and being monitored in every way a person can be monitored. Talk about breaking and breaking hard. After being on meds for awhile, I now have a foot in both ponds. I believe it and, at the same time, I think it’s the most ridiculous bullish*t I have ever heard.
Thank you for sharing your experiences with me. I don’t feel so alone. This book that I bought talks about the history of delusions and dedicates a lot of time to ‘Truman Show Syndrome’ whereby people feel they are being monitored and watched all the time like the movie ‘The Truman Show’. It has almost all 5 star ratings. Should be good.
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It’s the weirdest feeling, isn’t it? I didn’t have bodily implant delusions, but I know what it’s like to know utterly that something is false and believe it utterly anyway. It was always so tough to explain it because people stop listening at “I know it isn’t true.”
“A foot in both ponds”
Nice way of putting it!
Logic versus Make-Believe. When the fiction is sooo strong and compelling, but the facts just don’t add up.
Been there, done that, got the t-shirt!
I had an email exchange with the author of that book a few years ago regarding my Truman Show Delusion. He said he’d call me back down the road if he needed more info from me…but he never did call back.
I’m definitely going to read that book. It’s my delusion in spades.
@Rhubot, @Patrick
It is extremely bizarre to know it’s not true but believe it anyway. I have made progress because I used to believe it 100%. Trying to explain to people that you wished you didn’t believe it is even weirder because their attitude is ‘well just don’t believe it then!’ but is just ain’t quite that easy…
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