I dissociated in therapy today and now I’m worried I might have done something stupid but I don’t know if I did. And I want to ask my therapist but I also don’t want to bother her.
I know at least one alter showed up and I’m thinking at least one more took over. But I’m just worried like what if she throws me out of her practice. Or tries to lock me up again.
And my mom noticed I wasn’t myself and she keeps asking questions…
Well, you’re not medicated, so if your therapist says your other alters are causing you to be in danger of harming yourself or others then she might have grounds to hospitalize you again. You seem like you’re pretty stressed already, given things you’ve been posting lately, so I guess I’m just wondering what your other alters are like. Are they unstable as well? I’m sorry if this is really ignorant. I don’t know much of anything about DID. Do your mental illnesses affect all your alters equally? Like, could one of them be unhinged and you not know about it?
I’ve had a phase where my negatives were bad and I had difficulty enjoying anything besides going out for drinks. I know it is tough to live with and sometimes we act like trying harder is all it takes.
As far as I know most of my alters aren’t too unstable.
I mean like they’ll do some dumb stuff sometimes but most of them aren’t harmful.
Some self harm sometimes but they haven’t in a while. And some have had a history of anger but they haven’t lashed out in a while.
Theoretically one could be entirely off their rocker. But from the ones I’m aware of none of them seem to be like that…
But some have severe anxiety some are depressed. I got introverts i got extroverts. I got others with psychosis. I have some that don’t have anything wrong with them.
Feel free to ask any questions a lot of people don’t understand DID
Also just so you know there isn’t medication for DID.
Like for example depression one of my alters is just a ray of sunshine. Just happy and bubbly… idk what an antidepressant would do to him… if I could even get him to take it.
I don’t mean to get dark but I think it might have had adverse reactions on him before… i cant be sure though unfortunately…
So I texted my therapist and apparently the alter that showed up was very nice I guess… my therapist likes them? And then another one took over and immediately left I guess?