I had a terrible appointment with my psychologist today. She was reading a lot in to something I said and I got pissed off. And I guess we argued a bit.
But anyways I ended up dissociating. Apparently my most skittish alter took over and ended up crying cause she was so scared, poor thing. Apparently voices were telling her that the psych had called the hospital and they were coming for her
And apparently my psych was able to talk my alter out of that. but also said/did a couple of things that trigger this particular alter. I found out when me and my psych were talking later after I came back.
And I keep switching now cause I’m very stressed about it. I hate this.
I’m sorry for the rough appointment. I don’t have any advice. I don’t have DID but have had appointments that cause me to have episodes of dissociative amnesia for several days and it was miserable. I hope you find a way to feel better.
I’m sorry you’ve experienced the amnesia too. It’s always so disorienting and kinda scary. Is there anything you did that helped you cope with it at all?
I’m thinking I might just write down some like guidelines about my alters for my psych in case it happens again.
I tried to figure out what caused it, but we think it was just a combination of being overly stressed and then getting scared. I honestly don’t really remember much of it. I used to wear a medical bracelet with my husband’s phone number and my name. I would get confused and wonder away and get picked up by police or ambulances often. Luckily since being on the haldol and being so much more stable I haven’t had an episode of dissociative amnesia in about 3 years.
I honestly don’t remember much, though. I do remember waking up and being confused when I realized I’d been gone for 3 days with no memories. And that took some getting used to. Waking up in psych wards and then trying to convince doctors that no really I’m fine.
I don’t know. I’m sorry. I’m not being very helpful.
Well I’m glad you haven’t had any problems with it in so long! That’s awesome!
Maybe I should do the bracelet thing though it might not be a bad idea.
Also it’s ok! don’t be sorry! I’m just relieved I’m not the only person that has had the amnesia problems! Thank you for talking to me and sharing your story! You’ve been very helpful tonight
Hey noise. Sorry you have had a rough time. It’s your life so it feels like one hell of a massive deal and it is! if it helps (this always helps me) …I try to think of things on a much bigger picture. Like the whole world compared to what I’m going through and then what I’m going through even though it seems so difficult it seems so irrelevant
It doesn’t work for everyone. And I don’t want to make light of your situation. It’s judt what works for me.
Also I’ve had a tiny bit of what might be dissociation or zoning out. And I ground myself by smelling and feeling what is around me. Using my 5 senses. I have been through some very tragic circumstances in life. Sometimes I feel like I’m back in those moments. When I do I have to bring myself back to the present using my senses. Perhaps that could help you too ? Touch sound smell feel etc.
I try to look at the bigger picture but sometimes it has the opposite effect. But perhaps I can try to compare it to how it could have gone worse!
Don’t worry I know you aren’t making light of my situation. I’m happy you share what helps you! And I’m happy that it helps You!
This is actually one of my favorite grounding methods I use it all the time! Normally it works pretty well for me but today was just a slippery slope I got triggered and there was no getting me back at that point. I should’ve had more control. But maybe next time i can catch myself.
