It’s very disorienting but my alters are like my family.
I’d like some more control but I don’t really want them gone.
Most people don’t recover from DID some people can integrate their alters into their personality. But I’ve heard that in some cases it’s actually detrimental to the host to do so.
@Noise I’ll be honest with you. You come up with some pretty elaborate excuses for not wanting to take psychiatric medications.
I would strongly encourage you to work through your anti-med/med phobia issues with your therapist. You really can’t go through life refusing medical treatment whether for a psychiatric condition or other health condition.
I have to weigh all of my options @Moonbeam it’s not just my phobia.
Plus no medications for DID. Plus DID is still heavily under researched. To call my genuine concerns about my diagnosis an elaborate excuse, I find it rather insensitive.
My phobia sure call it an excuse, but my alters are real people. They are my family.
Luckily our therapist seems understanding. Like I said I just need to work on trust again. I feel like that will help us with a lot of the symptoms I’m going through.
I know a few people with DID, and they all take meds, including @flameoftherhine. You could always ask him how he manages with his alters.
Do you see a specialist who can help you learn to integrate? The integrated folks I know are pretty functional now, because they’ve all agreed on common goals.
Noise, best of luck in your efforts. With meds, it’s one thing if you’ve tried everything and it doesn’t work. But perhaps it is worth it to give meds an honest try if you haven’t. My meds now help a little, which is probably better than I expected. For me the help is worth it. You may even find that you get good results.
Did you say before you’ve had bad experiences with meds? Maybe if you had a psychiatrist you were sure you could trust that would listen and stop the meds if unacceptable side effects persisted?
We don’t want to integrate though… And as I previously stated I’ve heard integration can be detrimental to the host…
And just because something works for one person doesn’t mean it’ll work for another
I really don’t understand why meds are coming up right now?? Like I said I was nervous. My doc responded and said it was chill.
And since my psychologist and I are doing therapy for it, which is the treatment, and she says I don’t have to integrate even though she knows my situation much better than everyone here. I’m going to listen to my doctor.
My purpose of this post is to discuss my DID which again there is no medications for…
also as stated they are my family. integration is effectively murdering them in my eyes.
Until a doctor says I need to integrate/medicate I’m going to keep doing the best I can without doing those things.
And I’ve had both my psychologist and a psychiatrist at the hospital tell me I’m welcome to try without meds or integration.
Well yea some very bad experiences… it’s pretty traumatic. Some of it was side effects other parts were abuse that I went through from my parents and psychiatrist at the time. Now days meds are a trigger…
I’d consider doing this in the future but for now I’d need to get more comfortable with the idea of taking the meds.
But if I ever do try meds that would be an ideal plan!
I used to talk extensively with a guy who has DID. He is very high functioning (in that he is very successful at his job and mostly looks like a regular unassuming nerdy tech guy). I remember the day when he came crying to me because his therapy/psychiatry team wanted him to part with his alter (there was only one back then). Now he has a huge system of alters. His personality only fractured further from years of refusing to integrate. I hope you’re doing alright with your multiplicity. He found my disturbed mind beautiful, at least.
I understand the struggle of not wanting to part with them, but it’s a dangerous dance. Good vibes your way. I hope you can make peace with your struggles with medication.