and with the help of the treatment you finally knew what is to be just ok?cause i really spent years not knowing what is normal… i have some really strange sensations in my head and other things. and i just cant stop asking myself if there is an exit from this schizophrenic state?..
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I never understood the obsession with normality. If I were normal, I would be bored with myself. Granted, I don’t like the ill parts, but I live with them because I like being unique and different in my own way. I’m still working through medicating the ill parts, though.
zombiepupper, I just would like not to feel some of my symptoms. I am close to fainting in the evenings because of my sz… i feel my brain in my head so its painful
That sounds terrible. 
I’m sorry you experience that.
yeah… ive always felt more ill than crazy in fact. i have one friend who is schizophrenic too and she hasn’t those psychosomatic symptoms. my illness is quite strange yeap…
I hope you find a way that makes you feel better!
thanks. that’s why i count a lot on meds but ill see. i hope they wont make me crazier either…in fact, idk what to think anymore about the reality and the others. confusion?
Somebody else here with a little support? I am too fed up of living like an hermit and to always think of myself to be a freak compared to others… i cant see anymore how the others fujction. I think that i have the delusion that they possess some secret in order to feel better…
I still struggle with this. I no longer have a grasp on what “normal” used to be for me.
You could try going to the grocery store and doing it earlier and earlier in the day to be around more people and get used to it.
I wish I could offer suggestions, I myself am still in the maelstrom of not knowing what is real and what isn’t.
The voices keep saying “do what you want” in a sarcastic voice, they say I am dead, going to hell.
My doctor tells me they are hallucinations and to not listen to them but then I hear him in my head telling me its real.
Hopefully we figure this out earlier rather than later.
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I usually know what normal is for like maybe a half hour. The most I ever felt normal was for 2 weeks. But besides that pretty much never feel 100%
Despite the fact that I am so delusional, it takes over most of my days, I am still keenly aware of what ‘normal’ is. I can feel what it was like to be normal and I still have fleeting moments of normalcy. I hope my delusion goes away which, for me, means that these scientists who are controlling my brain plug me back into the Matrix and make me forget or not realize I am being controlled so I can at least feel like I am normal. As it stands, I am distracted by my fake, staged world and the fact that I am being constantly controlled and watched. I can’t explain to you what normal is but I function completely normally out in the world and I remember what normal is like. It’s just these damn thoughts that keep it out of my reach. The damn inserted thoughts.
thanks for your answers guys. yeah, i still hear the words of my pdoc who was telling that its a hard disease. i think even she didn’t believe in recovery for me.i am on meds since 7 years and i still live like a disabled person without a moment of peace. i try to calm down my thoughts but sometimes i am too anxious, only klonopin works. i have problems since kid so i cant see anymore a better future.
but we keep going,
kisses
p.s. plus when i am at my worse i really dont feel my real ‘‘me’’. i feel like another person wow…
No, because I had a normal childhood and I always remembered what that was like.