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Did you ever suffer from sexual abuse

I suffered from sexual abuse when i was younger, this one of dark secrets i really never told anyone about this. I felt so traumatized and ashamed about myself. I didnt know what to do. I wish they can go to hell for what they did to me. Please dont judge me.

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I dealt with it, starting when I was about 14. Oddly enough, that’s also when my hallucinations started. Gee I wonder if there is a link there.

My abuser is very welcome at family gatherings still. I am not, because I had the audacity to accuse him of sexual abuse. It still hurts.

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Yea i understand, realize the abuser was a disgusting and sick person. I hope karma will catch up to him and the others.

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I cant remove out of my memory, i wish i can.

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It is unfair how easy it is for them to get away with it. For a long time, I had trouble recovering. My therapist said it was because my pain was the only proof I had that the abuse was real, and I felt like if I let go of it, I would be losing my only piece of evidence.

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me too, i feel the same way. but god will punish them for what they did. I just dont understand why they did it to me. The took advantage of me. Like im just a piece of meat. It effected me for a while, when i got older i learn to cope with my feelings.

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But it feels so good to talk about it, i kept it in for this long. I never told anyone.

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It really helped me when I finally talked about it with people who didn’t blame me. You are US, right? Here is a link to the RAINN website and hotline. If you call, they can connect you with free sexual abuse counseling in your area. They helped me a ton. You can call the number or do a live chat.

https://www.rainn.org/

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thanks ninjastar i’ll visit the site. appreciate it.

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As terrible as the stigma is for female sexual abuse survivors, it is a thousand times worse for men. You are brave for coming forward, and I bet there are other men reading this thread who feel less alone now because of what you wrote.

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I was thinking twice, because idk what people were going to say about me. Im glad i post it.

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I went to the link, waiting for counselor now, thanks. This my darkest secret i kept for so long in me.

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@oe1489 you have no idea how proud I am of how brave you have been lately. Reaching out when you had thoughts of self harm, and reaching out again now. It takes so much courage to come forward and ask for help. And other people see you do it, and feel a bit braver to ask for help themselves.

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thanks ninjastar it was hard for to post it but i had to do something.

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I don’t know if I was abused if mental sexual abuse and ritual spanking is abuse then yes my father was actually an arsehole everything about him is sex and he thought he should communicate all of it to us including through porn
I think I’ve been raped a couple of times a couple of different men at once
I’m 100% detached
I’ve never even looked back and been upset

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thats horrible, did you report to it the police.

No, but my care coordinator put my father on a watch list
Had to, as he’s a risk to children
Also managed to remarry after hundreds of affairs with 16 year olds to a woman with 2 young children including one who then became schizophrenic

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o okay i understand.

I was anally raped by the IRA or Americans through tactile hallucinations

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I suffered from sexual abuse due to Abilify, unwanted sex. I was abusing and traumatizing myself.

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