Did you enjoy School/Education?

Hey everyone, I’m curious. Did you enjoy the school system in your development years?

I personally enjoyed ages 3 to 11, but 11 onwards I felt stressed and I think was the beginning of me being unable to cope with the executive functional demands of school and organisation of daily routines.

I stopped playing sports after 11to14 as well and that might have exacerbated my health and development.

4 Likes

I didn’t really enjoy my younger years at school… I felt very dumb and unaware… (my head was in a daze)

High school/9-11th sucked badly but I can still look back on some things fondly. I was a teachers assistant to two different teachers in 12th grade. I was pretty close to 3 of my teachers. I would self harm from 7th-11th grade. I feel like I had depression but nobody would take me to a therapist. I participated in Volleyball for only two years.

That’s the sum of it.

2 Likes

I’m sorry self harm was a part of that, I once did it around age 14. But I felt like it seemed not right so I stopped. But yeah, depressive episodes were hitting me around that age too —- for a long time; I felt I had no youth

2 Likes

I hated it. I spent 1st grade in a dark box (that’s not a metaphor). It’s also when I started hallucinating. :thinking:

1 Like

I didn’t like school, but I liked learning. I was psychotic most of high school, but still managed to graduate with honors. I didn’t get along with my teachers. I didn’t really have friends. I had an abusive boyfriend. It was a mess.

4 Likes

It’s okay🙂 I regret being so out of control of my emotions, but I def don’t do it anymore. Haven’t for a long time.

I’m sorry you also feel like you had depression then also

2 Likes

That sounds horrible and cruel. Can I ask what made that happen?

You don’t have to answer if you’d rather not,

2 Likes

Kudos for graduating because that sounds like it was not easy at all. I hope you’re healing or have healed as much as can be from the negative side of things

3 Likes

I enjoyed school and university a lot but only before sz.

2 Likes

I guess maturity and growth or development really is something we take for granted.

It’s good you’re in a better place, :raised_hands: that’s awesome

2 Likes

Would you ever go back to education? Because I know from your posts you were an able student and that you still have interest in the biological/physiological field

2 Likes

First and Second grades were pretty good. Fifth grade was good. Then high school was good. Six years out of twelve were good.

3 Likes

Not unless I feel a lot better, recovered and confident. First I want to try working and if I do good, I will try to get another degree maybe in biochemistry or biology. Or maybe do a specialization/master in my physiotherapy program.
But I don’t think its possible. Maybe taking Ritalin will help but a high dose can cause psychosis so not sure yet.

3 Likes

I hope you’re able to get into work and it works out for you man, it really is so helpful when the right support is in place and it’ll open so much purpose if done correctly!

2 Likes

Thanks, how are your studies? Good?

3 Likes

Yeah bro, they’re going okay. I feel a little more positive about it at the moment.

It’s very stressful but I think I’m slowly progressing, hopefully it works out - I’m really putting in my all atm

2 Likes

Everything after 3rd grade sucked until college. Too many bullies and uncaring teachers.

-S

5 Likes

I think I started hating school in seventh grade. According to my dad, that’s when I first got weird and withdrawn. Still, I had some fun.

In the summer before seventh grade I had rejected a friend from elementary school, and the end result was that everyone I knew in sixth grade had gotten close over the summer and when we all got to seventh grade most of them wanted nothing to do with me. It was the first of several times where I went for periods with no friends.
Eventually, I made some friends and it was fun.

I hated high school. It wasn’t cool to say that in my circle of friends, but I really hated it. I was so miserable a lot of the times. It’s only by a miracle and the grace of god that I wasn’t bullied; I don’t know how I escaped it. But I was homely and awkward and shy. I don’t think anybody noticed me. I rarely talked in any of my classes. I was pretty low on the scale, low man on the totem poll.

I eventually started hanging out with a couple friends in my neighborhood at school. I found the schoolwork difficult but manageable. I didn’t mention it but I was a pretty smart kid. It wasn’t until 11th grade that my grades started going downhill. Not coincidentally, that’s when I started smoking a lot of pot.
I was low man but I had my moments. In 11th grade the cool place to hang out was in the middle of the school and that’s where everybody hung out to be seen. That’s where the jocks hung out. I hung out there with my friends for a while. I didn’t think it was cool at the time but looking back, it helps me now to think of it. I should also mention that I didn’t have a girlfriend in high school. I couldn’t talk to girls back then except on rare occasions. A few girls actually liked me during high school but I didn’t take the chance to get to know them and I still regret that.
My senior year I hung out in the stoner area. It was a field in back of the school l where everybody smoked pot at breaks and lunch. I smoked pot with a lot of them and also sold pot to a lot of them. In the small area I was kind of known for having joints and dime bags of weed and some pretty cool people were regular customers. Doesn’t mean I was part of them, but in a weird way, I was.

I also discovered cutting classes. Learned how to forge my moms handwriting and her signature and cutting classes became a regular thing for me with a good friend.

We’d cut a couple classes and go to his house to smoke weed. We got pretty confident and our cutting classes became second nature. We would cut whole days but other day we might cut 1st and 5th period only. Later in the week we might cut 4th period thru 6th period or just cut 1st period. Then go a couple days with cutting and then cut just 3rd period. The counselor in the attendance office was in charge of taking notes from home and all the paperwork for excuses and one time we saw our files and they were like these big fat folders.
The counselor was sending letters to my parents constantly but it was my chore to get the mail at home and I intercepted every letter and ripped them up. Of course eventually we got busted, big time.

I accidently let a letter slip by and one day me and my friend had taken some acid and were tripping on it at his house and my parents called his house and ordered me home where my parents confronted me with all my truancy and I had to sit there and hide that I was on acid while they gave me a seriouslecture.

4 Likes

this was a fun read lol, I think it’s good to mess around a bit when you’re younger. experience life in different circles I mean. it’s good for social skills

2 Likes

I never really liked schoom, but I like learning.
I don’t like being in a classroom full of people/distractions, I don’t like having strict deadlines for menial tasks, and I don’t like to sit still for 2 hours while staring at a powerpoint.

1 Like