My current diagnosis is bipolar, type one. However, that diagnosis has quickly started to change when I started experiencing self harming and violent intrusive thoughts, flashes of bad, violent and self harming images recently. I went into a treatment center recently and was put on strong medication to stabilize me. The night before the admission to the treatment center, I heard command hallucinations. I have always had bad delusions off my medicine, such as people can read my mind or that a loved one is out to kill me. I am currently diagnosed with executive functioning disorder.
In you all’s experience, does this sound schizophrenic? I am asking for your advice and not professional opinion. I just don’t know anyone who’s schizophrenic and I am pretty high functioning and I have no one to talk about it with. I don’t know how to process this except to be irritable and depressed and my parents, whom I’m living with until I get some tests done, just don’t understand.
Additionally, if it is schizophrenia, do people ever understand? I am dating a guy who is bipolar who thinks I’m bipolar. I have been dating him for three years and I’m unsure how he’d handle this potential new diagnosis… I could really see a future with him but I can’t lie to him about this. He knows something is going on but he doesn’t know what. My family understands to the fullest of their ability, but I’m not sure if he’ll just think of me of a crazy lunatic instead of the same person I’ve always been.
Last question: biological kids. Bad idea? I want them so bad but I don’t want them to suffer. Has anyone had experience having kids and them turning out fine?