I left a high school where 300 kids probably thought i was a lunatic. I mean my whole school, and i don’t know how to deal with it. I have like ptsd from that place and it ended like syd barrett leaving pink floyd. They definitely don’t think about it anymore everyones probably moved on but its hard to get by knowing ur whole school that u went to for 11 years (half my life) in the end thinks ur a deranged psycho. 
I know 300 people isn’t much in the grand scheme of things but knowing them for half my life and me becoming ill just was a shitty experience. Its like I’ve lost half of my life currently that i can’t reclaim and theres no going back. Everything in the end thought i was crazy and probably mocked me for it like i deserve it.
I think the best way to show people you aren’t what they think anymore is to be the best you are able, by taking good care of yourself, acting responsibly, calmly, and thoughtful around others.
No one can change the (miserable) things that have already occurred in the past, but that isn’t any reason to allow your past to ruin your future too.
Have some compassion for yourself, it’s not what you have done in life that counts as much as it is what you have done about it.
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High school was a dark time for me too. I’ve pretty well lost contact with most of the people I knew then, so I’m not too worried about what they thought of me.
The best revenge is to live well.
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It could be 300 people you dont see anymore or 1 or 2 close friends. It hurts. Schizophrenia is something noone wants. However, everyone has a past. Handling it now and being mindful of the future will bandage the wound some. Hope you feel better. You have us here.
I’m sorry you had to go through that. On the brightside you’re still very young, if you want you can make new friends. You always have us here.
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