Days are too long

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For years I used to run and cycle to kill time and exhaust myself during the day. Cant do that anymore to the same extent really.

I used to read during the day, but now there is really nothing I want to learn about.

I guess the common thing for people to do is work at their job during the day, but presently I cant get one and feel that is perhaps worse than having nothing to do. The fact that working sucks is lost on the situation where doing nothing sucks less. It doesnt mitigate it.

Its nice to just kill time relaxing but boredom is an angst that ruins it. I would like to read, run and cycle but something has happened to me as a result of treatment that I cant sustain those practices.

The days are too long, and I only feel perfect when Im asleep. Im alone and bored every day and it seems that misery is the only option.

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I can’t even find peace in sleep. I sleep 2 or 3 hours at a time and have horrible nightmares and wake up. Fun, fun.

The alternatives have not worked out either. Melatonin did not stop it. Trazodone made me confused and forgetful.

I guess I’ll keep trying other things, but I am not in the greatest place either atm for a lot of reasons.

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The best thing is to be actively engaged with interesting activities. Places to go , people to see, things to do. But I have none of those. I literally feel every moment pass like im listening to my own heart beat, and its often agonizing

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Any plans to improve your life?

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not really. im 40 years old and i feel like my life is basically over. i really have no life and dont want to work hard at a job with this disability to sustain this nothingness.

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Life doesn’t have to be about work alone.

Perhaps, you could find some hobbies that interest you? Join a club to do it.

is there anything else interests you?

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i moved somewhere with very little to do in order to have shelter. its a convenient place to live close to grocery, but there is not much to do besides basic exercise and fishing. fishing can get old fast.

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I feel sad today as well. And slightly off.

Do you usually feel this way?

Do you have depression?

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the rexulti im on seems to cause mild depression

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It seems the avolition is kicking in too, maybe.

Perhaps it is a cycle and things will improve in the future.

I certainly hope so…

Meditation is my only escape at present. It is pretty wicked, do you do that?

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hope is really the only thing i can have. id like to meet someone nice for companionship but another person can be a nightmare too. i like being alone, but i just need to get busy with things i enjoy but those are few

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no i cant meditate

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A pet can be comforting too.

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thats out of the question for me

yes they can be a comfort

but its entertainment i need and they are fairly useless for that

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You don’t have to get a goldfish! :smiley:

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ive had dogs

playing fetch is a aggravating game actually

what else can they do?

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I expect you could train dogs to do a lot.

I’ve seen Britain’s got talent! (Well, i haven’t, but a few clips of a trained dog. ) :smiley:

Truffle hunting would be a fun hobby to me, just off the top of my head.

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yes, i see.

there is the whole going all in on a hobby thing with a trained animal

i could train a dog and catch rats all over the island. or become a falconer and have a raptor do my bidding.

what im looking for is a variety of activities, but it seems my brain is listless and unstimulatable.

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That is simply a meds issue, i reckon.

No dopamine, no fun…

Keeping a positve mindset is difficult.

Hope you make it anyway.

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thanks for your support

there is options as you have shown

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