I have been rapid cycling throughout moods since I was a kid. Never really bothered me.i kinda like it,but I especially hate the low self loathing mood. Despair almost
Since I have been working in therapy I found Romanian rap music is a big trigger for me, so big that it could trigger an episode in the right conditions
Well, today I had enough so I listen to it for an hour,my mood lifted after it so high that I almost lost insight into my situation.
I was quick enough to switch to American trap music,and just like that I became stable,mmy insight is far from lost and the lifted mood remained.
Music is one of the most important parts in my life. Like I listen overnight while sleeping, at work for 6 hours out of 8, on the bus, train, at home. Out of 24 I listen to music for around 20 hours
I take mood stabilizers and on a scale from 1 to 10 with 10 being mania I’m around 6-7 for the biggest part of the year. Maybe 11/12 months. If I am to put it in a yearly perspective. That’s why it doesn’t bother me