But sometimes I think I deserve it. I’m too numb to do it. It’s so old. I’m low then yesterday I was high now I’m low again. Hubby and me are under a shiteload of stress and I’m feeling so awful so heavy so numb so nothing so nothing so nothing
Nothing nothing nothing
Maybe death will be a relief but I’m so numb nothing will be done.
Everything is falling to pieces financial losses multiplied lawyers to deal with and hubby’s symptoms when he’s stressed and mine too and there’s a dark tunnel with no light. Everything feels cursed hubby thinks so too, we can’t even relate properly
Hey, just noticed this thread. A bit too much sleeping today. Our policy on self harm threads is one of judging on a case by case basis…this thread seems to be one of not encouraging it too much and is not too graphic so I’m going to leave alone for now.
Please try it keep it that way though, as these threads are hard to judge and it’s kind of on the borderline right now. If it gets to be encouraging it or gets too graphic, I will have to close or hide.
I really don’t want to close/hide when you are asking for help.
Btw, I know you said you aren’t comfortable with crisis lines, but if you change your mind, I will post.
I don’t understand. My brain is fizzing so all I …hear in my thought zone is the radio playing up there. And… I don’t get …it nevertheless happening and why I dunno
Did you stop taking the medication? You were doing so well the other day. Please don’t hurt yourself, please reach out to a crisis line. Can you set up an emergency appointment with your pdoc so you can go before the 31st?
Maybe it’s the new diet? Maybe you can relax your diet a bit and enjoy yourself a little. Maybe that can help. Not sure what else to say. I hope you’ll stick around the forum and vent as much as you can
