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Confused
Person claimed bugs are good for you and not a problem
Specifically roaches
Their home is infested
Conversation came up because I said I wouldn’t eat off the dishes or prepare food in that house because of the bugs
Dirty spread disease
Person told me I was wrong
Took the you eat 8 spiders internet fact
Changed it to 8 spiders and roaches a night
I said this wasn’t true
Pointing out its a fake internet fact
Told me I was wrong
And claimed it as fact they knew long before the internet
I know person is lying
I think I can’t shouldn’t trust person
Makes me worry
Think the bugs are sign I’m in bad place and person is really the demon
I had clear mind for a moment
Person suddenly came in room and began talking about alternate realities and mirror worlds and and demons being real and talked in circles and nonsense
I said no
I’m trying to deal with real reality and problems
Wanted to shut down trigger words ideas
Block the confusion and nonsense
Know keep those ideas out of my head
I think person is the demon
Making appearance so I can’t connect to the real world
Person demon? gets mad
Tells me I need distraction
No I don’t want distraction
Says you maybe don’t want but you need it
No
No
Wrong
Turns nasty
Bite your tongue
You need to listen
Don’t think about things
Don’t focus on your problems
Don’t try to find way out
Making a plan to make get to a better life?
That’s funny
Laughs
Meanly mockingly
Accuses
If I don’t allow distraction
If I think about focus plan
My mind will crack
End up crazy
Mental breakdown
Fall apart
This is wrong
I know this is wrong
It’s all sorts of wrong
I can’t shouldn’t trust person
Not some one like this
Who does this
Says this
Tells me this
But I think
Not the person
It’s the demon thing illusioning as person
Person is good a friend
Right right?
I don’t think person is good person
Or friend
Stranger really
Feel danger
It’s paranoia
I’m not capable of reading people situations correctly
That’s what I’m told
Delusional
But tells me things I know knowknow know
Know
Are wrong
I know are wrong
It’s the demon thing
Worse
It’s the person
I feel it inside
Squirming
Shifting
To tip into full madness
Fear
Escaped running wild
Paranoia paranoid demons alternate realities
Or the stark reality my “friend” is really a stranger who means to harm me
My brain is melting
Retreating
Bubble in bubble
Stark reality is bad
Pretty sure demon thing possibly of being real
Really hope not
I’ve got enough problems
I don’t need some demon picking me to target
There’s like 7 billion other people
Go ■■■■ off somewhere else
Or you know classic go to hell
Ok that makes me laugh
I heard the darko bunny voice today
Coming from persons room
It was their game
I keep telling myself
Hallucination I’ll allow
Please just not what I think it was
Heard person using weird elmoish voice
Made dogs growl
I think person possessed by demon
Perhaps one that has been targeting me
Perhaps one of theirs
I know they have demons
Of the normal fighting their demons variety
Also the other kind I think
I don’t care which demon it is or if it’s multiple demons in cahoots
Needs to leave me alone