The anhedonia I have is so crippling that Im tempted to resort to taking mdma at glastonbury. I wish I didn’t feel like this- I wish I could just enjoy music on its own but it just doesn’t feel the same anymore, the anhedonia washes over everything- no joy or excitement or amuesment. Just a grey, it’s the worst!
Has anyone had experience with substances but since left them? I’d like to hear about your story of leaving them behind and if you have any advice on this current predicament of mine.
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Man that wouldnt be healthy for your brain on antipsychotics and your risking a relapse. Maybe a festival is too much, too many people ect
I enjoy music in short spurts on meds and. Sober especially with a diet pepsi
It used to be a dream of mine to go to that specific festival but I guess I’m having a really hard time accepting how things have changed. I used to love partying and drinking, smoking doing mdma with my friends at festivals and nights out but since becoming diagnosed and researching on reddit, the general consensus is that there is an ever present risk of psychosis if drugs are consumed.
Obviously this has greatly upset me as I can’t do what I used to do. It was a great source of bonding with my friends when we would be on mdma and enjoy music together, have great chats to one another etc.
It’s this drastic and sudden change of circumstances that I’m having a really hard time coming to terms to.
And this cursed anhedonia that has been with me since I got unwell is really making things a lot more difficult. I wouldn’t give a damn about having schizophrenia if I could enjoy music and feel passion and excitement again but I feel like recovery is hopeless.
