Confession...I'm looking for insight on

[Jonnybegood]

So yesterday I was vaping cbd. A fairly good amount of it! I then invited my friend over to smoke weed. He has a med card. He brought an indica strain and it was pure thc. So I guess I broke my sobriety but at least I didn’t drink which is worse for me by anyways…but to my bliss, the cbd completely cancelled all the bad effects of the thc. For the first time in my life I felt…human…comfortable in my own skin. It was unreal. We went for a walk. I was talking to people, smiling at people, saying hi to people. I had inhibitions still but usually I am a very inhibited person. I think it was a healthy level of inhibitions. I saw a cool guy and usually my negative self talk says “damn why is that guy so much cooler than me”. But instead I said “I’m like that guy!!!” I saw us for similar rather than my usual negative thinking toward him. I was gonna say hi and compliment his dog but he crossed the road. It was like I was in heaven. All for adding cbd to medical thc. I’m thinking with the right strain, it could be helpful to me. I still was high but none of the paranoia or anything. When I first smoked weed when I was 17 It was nothing like that. It was paranoid and dark but I did it anyways a lot. This was new. Nothing like I ever experienced before. Like I said I felt human for the first time… it was surreal. I only took 2 hits of thc and many hits of cbd so I’m not sure the ratio I experienced but whatever it was it worked well!!! And I still wouldn’t drive on that or smoke more than 1 time in a day…but every now and then…it’d be helpful experience. It got me out of my comfort zone.