The arsenic is taking hold.
What can i do?
Can’t escape.
the pan is back 
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I knew I felt a blast of cheerfulness. Just couldn’t figure out where it was coming from.
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“If i was going to kill someone i’d use arsenic.” She said to my brother as she sat in front of me. The symptoms of the arsenic began showing a while before this happening.
But i was a crazy person. To broke to leave, the fate of leaving would be worse than the arsenic. I could try to tell someone but they’d believe i was paranoid or delusional.
If you’re spending a lot of time worrying about this, maybe consider having a doctor test you for arsenic? That should put the matter to rest, no?
I could prove it probably but i wouldn’t be able to do anything about it.
I’m trapped.
Well, you could also disprove it in which case your worries should be alleviated.
I looked it up.
I have almost every single one of the symptoms now, almost all of them.
My two options is leave it because i can’t do ■■■■ or prove it not be able to do ■■■■.
Nah, the by far most likely outcome would be that the tests would come back normal, providing conclusive evidence that you do not have arsenic poisoning, and then you would no longer need to worry about it.
What are the odds i am not being given arsenic if i am showing almost all of the symptoms of chronic poisoning.
Well, let me put it this way, the chance that someone is intentionally poisoning you with arsenic seems highly unlikely.
Blood and urine tests can provide you with conclusive results either way.
If it comes up positive, then the police will be notified and the poisoning will stop. You don’t have anything to lose by getting tested.
Welcome back, by the way. Glad to see you 
I know i have nothing to lose but i know i can’t do anything.
You can’t do ■■■■ if you are crazy, broke, and sick.
Not to mention the magical mind control and manipulation of my inner feelings.
If they were doing it, which they have communicated several times that they hate me and would like to see me dead, busting them would actually just ■■■■ me over. I have nowhere to go at all.
What symptoms do you have?
The burning from the arsenic was pretty bad.
The meta-physical realizations and visions on the way were intense as well.
So i went into the store feeling nearly dead to get my food.
The previous customers were leaving and the worker says “thanks for keeping me company.” And they reply “Anything to help with the crazies!” As they glared at me and stared me down.
Getting food for me is a harrowing experience full of horror and pain.
If you’re showing all of the symptoms, ask someone you trust (but more importantly, someone who will be taken seriously) to escort you to a hospital. Having a mental illness should not exclude you from the comfort of seeking treatment. I say, play it safe.
That being said, I hope that it’s only a delusion. But the only way to be sure is to seek medical advice.
Wash your rice at least 4 times before cooking and eating it, it has been found to contain a scary amount of arsenic in it.
Welcome back pans.
It’s not been very much fun.
Booted into the street at eighteen. Possessed on halloween just after me birthday. They began drugging me. It was a rapid decline and endless ass beating for years.
The end result: Burnt brain, non stop spiritual ■■■■ happening, burning sensation in entire lower half of body, gangrene in feet and growing into legs, ■■■■■■ up kidneys, rather embarrasing side effects from poisons, poverty, they are trying to force suicide on me, the memory of two month long tortures that nearly resulted in death, depression, smoking habit, destroyed chakras.
I could go on but you get the drift.
A voice chimes in “Are they giving you arsenic or are you just being poisoned? If not arsenic you are still getting poisoned you know. Yeah, you are getting poisoned one way or the other. You show several symptoms of arsenic but it could just be the other poison you are forced to take.”
I could quit smoking but that would just mean i’m going to get poisoned and die. If i’m not getting the arsenic which i’m showing symptoms of then i’m still getting poisoned. If i quit taking the poisons it’s back to the possessions and torments.
What to choose? Death, death, death, or death? What a tough decision.
I can still remember what it felt like having my body shut down when i was tortured. I was near to collapsing.
It’s also not easy knowing my family wants to kill me or for me to kill myself. One tried to get me to buy drugs like three times so i’d hurt myself, the other flat out looked over at the other one and asked “do you want to kill him?”.
Did you know that sometimes you are tortured because you were tortured? Sometimes if you get tortured there are effects from it and then others will hurt you because of those effects which brings about even more effects which you are then hurt for even more.
Wow. Possessed and tortured twice, homeless twice, my car stolen from me, knives held to my throat twice, beaten, almost lost my eye from infection, nearly died during both month long tortures, poverty for years with no escape, poisoned, a raped brain/forced thoughts and drugged, burning body, no energy, dead chakras, spirits appearing, gangrene, depression, terror, smoking habit that is illogical to stop because it doesn’t matter anymore, messed up kidneys, abandoned and disowned by father, voices, cut in my sleep, shocked/electrocuted, burned, phsycially accosted by invisible being, losing hair(probably from the arsenic), random ass witches coming up to me to tell me there are witches/didn’t really want to know that man, abuse entire life, kidnapped as a child, custody battles, alcoholism throughout life/not me/just trapped with it, attempted kidnapping while homeless, shitty side effects from poisons, crazy meta-physical ■■■■ happening every day, Entire lower half of body burning, alot of evil magical ■■■■ to, showing signs of arsenic, repeatedly judged in public and by family, forced to be fat as well as other embarrasing ■■■■.
“He isn’t lying. He has experienced almost every single type of hell that the earth has to offer. When it comes to hell there is almost nothing he hasn’t been through.” The voice chimes in against my will.
What’s worse is i know i have to go soon. Waking up is undoable now.
I’m sorry this is all happening to you. Psychosis is a type of hell. We all have to find strength somewhere and in some thing. Just keep pushing forward and all this will make a little more sense with each day.
When is your next doctors visit and what meds are you on?
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