I think I’m going to try to come back to my job tomorrow. I think this is very risky because I feel worse and I have difficulties walking and I have to take the bus. I may end up worsening my condition or slowing down my recovery.
But the company started this morning putting pressure on me to come back as soon as possible. They sent me emails to ask me what is my condition, what I have and to ask me a paper from the doctor right away!
But I’m not sure this is a good decision because I have a tendency in asking too much of myself and in not taking myself into consideration.
I really would have needed to see my psychiatrist quicker because she would have known when I am ready. Too bad I have to wait so much to see someone when I need help!
I also think it would be good for my psychiatrist Friday to know how I did in a come back to work tentative. It will give her a good idea of my condition.
I have a lot of experience with the hospitals in the province of Québec. While I was sick before 2013 (before taking an antipsychotic), I used to go a lot at the emergency and I have been never taken seriously, always told that it was all in my head and that I was a nuisance for the public health system. I’m not kidding!!! Because of that, I don’t have confidence anymore in hospitals and doctors.
You have to magnify it a lot. The way you are talking on this forum… you are freaking out and worries and feel so ill, got us in a turbulence.
When you talk with your nurse and doctor or 811 - you have to freak out on the phone. because if you talk nicely… and say ‘I am fine, I am only worried about some symptoms because I can not work’ they will never take you seriously.
It is not funny to stay home for 10 years?! without doing something?
I have never thought that if they don’t take me seriously, this is because of me. When I was sick before 2013, I have tried everything with the doctors and nothing worked!!! Maybe I’m not a good actor I don’t know.
But I think the doctors should be professional also!!!
Anyway I think it’s too late because I am blacklisted in the public health system. As soon as the doctor opens my public medical record, he sees that he must not do anything because it is written. I think this is what the nurse saw when I called her on 811.
I have never heard of this. how can you be blacklisted? did you do something?
You do not have to act. It is not acting. But you are so much more stubborn than me
It has nothing to do about being a professional but you need to take necessary measures when it is appropriate.
Once my nurse gave me injection, my back hurt a lot and my leg was numb, so I went to emergency the same night.
It is important to check something before it is too late.
The Reason I don’t work is because I use to work at Asplundh during the time I had my Big Breakdown. All these tough guy’s looking at me talking about me, like what’s wrong with him and he needs help.
I will never go through that again. I know I could work for a good 3-6 months straight without problems, but eventually my problems will come alive and cause me to get fired or make me look like a fool at work.
I commend you for working man, cause I know I couldn’t do it, but anybody that works with this scizaffective disorder has my utmost respect
I have been blacklisted because I had severe physical symptoms for 12 years and they are caused by a mental illness. During these 12 years, I was going a lot to see the doctors and to the hospital because I was in a pityful condition. But since it is caused by a mental illness the doctors never found any physical cause but they never thought about a psychiatric condition. So, they started thinking that it was all in my head, that I was exaggerating and inventing and they wrote that in my medical record. But I still went to ask for their help and then they decided it was enough so they decided to blacklist me to prevent me from getting any more physical tests or anything else.
I’m only grateful that one day a psychiatrist decided to help me despite I was blacklisted and this is why she is the only one I have to help me.
What is written in my public medical record is very bad because it will remain there forever.
This is a really good question! I don’t know. The health system is entirely public here. And I think that even the private doctors here have an access to the public medical records.
But I don’t even know if there are any private psychiatrists here. All the doctors here are paid by the government and we all have only one public medical record accessible to all doctors!
how can you be blacklisted? did you do something? 
