Combative emotions on the forum...an apology

I’ve been to war in afghanistan, I’ve trained in three branches of military and were harassed and bullied by people in ALL branches.

I’ve seen a horrible decline in national security. I’ve seen a horrible decline in military approval or even concern…(most people do not concern themselves with the military and their fight because it is confusing and surreal).

This is where we’re failing, we’re failing to integrate these middle easterns from farmers to extremists in our european and american new world.

The crimes being committed are horrible, and just saddens me to think of everything I had to do in afghanistan going to the dogs of corporations.

I chiseled stone, dug out complete firebases by hand working 20 hour workshifts of extreme manual labor and getting rest only in 2 2 hour rest shifts. Then a day would pass and I would do it again while getting shot at with RPGs, and dealing with the wild dogs which were fricking huge.

I was a paratrooper, I jumped out of airplanes to get to work and it really wasn’t a decent trip, ever. I want to tell you that I loved every minute of it, and longed to kill our enemies which I had the chance and took it in 2003 at 19-20 years old…

Just like vietnam…I was 19 when I got to afghanistan and the day of my birthday to 20 I was so busy I didn’t even realize it was my birthday.

I’ve been targeted, hypnotized, and used in very many ways. I am neveragain because I refuse.

I refuse to keep doing sacrilegious things for a government that is built upon lies and mind control. I want to be in good standing with god, and we all know that the people in power are hardly godly but probably sacrifice babies to beelzebub or something. They’re evil, they’re detached, and need to be struck to get their real attention. SO HIT THEM.

We’ve been discarded as a (lesser class). It’s the truth, I’m a weapons expert and I have been disarmed from my personal weapons, which is NOT good.

I’m not going to keep prolonging war and freedom to you, but I do want you to consider that I was blowing up alot of people with artillery fire missions.

We blew those chechens into pieces, they ambushed our mounted patrols of MPs and infantry. They called us, and we did our job and bombed those chechen pieces of ■■■■ into oblivion.

Even the infantrymen thanked us, and I got a coin from their colonel.

I want to tell you that we’re being attacked in a very subversive way. I will tell you this right now, and you had better listen to me:

DON"T LISTEN TO NETWORK TV OR CORPORATE MEDIA IT"S ALL PROPOGANDA.

We have a defense budget of world conquest proportions. And in 2001, (right before 911), we had found out that the pentagon could not account for 2.3 TRILLION DOLLARS of spending.

That was donald rumsfeld at work, he milked our budget, and tried to cripple our country.

These american terrorists and dirty corrupt government workers and now targeting you.

Everyone is being taken for a ride, and it’s a trip to the bottom unless we refuse to listen or watch these people or support their criminal ways.

I want you to make a sign, each of you. I want you to make a sign that means you and your struggle and I want you to walk to a busy street and hold it for people to see.

I want your sign to be you, and only you and just your concerns and thoughts or your coming out as a schizophrenic. (which most people on this site are not full blown schizophrenic).

I just want your voice to be seen and heard, make a good message and think about what people would think when you hold it.

I’m too emotionally involved with the government from my association with them. I worked very, very hard to ensure these people still had their power and you had your freedom.

I’m Patrick, and I was a machine gunner and artilleryman in afghanistan.

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I edited out your full name, hope you don’t mind.

I don’t, I know you have a really big responsibility ensuring the mental well being of everyone on the site. I’m trying not to be as extreme as I feel now a days. I can get to feeling really intense and vengeful and frustrated. I never thought after the war things would get this bad. But they’re not really too great and I don’t want to see more war and suffering.

It’s completely avoidable, and I say no more than yes nowadays. I’m very, very stubborn.

I get that, I’m sorry you’re in so much pain. Wish there was something I could say to comfort you.

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I want to stop the wars but I don’t know how.

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I admire your courage to say your own thoughts, many people do not have that courage. Just try to find your personal inner peace.

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Make a sign, any type of sign…go to a busy street and hold it up.

Maybe it could say, (mental illness is real, stop the war).

I’ve lived in fear many years, knowing how violent these extremists are and what they’re willing to do to kill us. Many times I have feared for my life, and still hesitate to mow my lawn because people could drive by and shoot me for my opinions with a .22 and get away before anyone knew it.

I’m tired though, and I’m pouring out mjseu, pouring out with horrible frustration. I just can’t bear to see this happening I’ve become to fragile to see us so unprotected like…I’m not protected my weapons were taken from me you know? I can’t even hunt anymore…

I’m just trying to say that our voice can be very strong and we all are having problems yet brilliant at the same time. I want your support, just make a sign and hold it…not too much huh?

I’m wearing my schizophrenia shirt today. It’s not exactly a sign, but it does proclaim who I am very clearly. I believe in taking a stand for the rights of other schizophrenics who can’t stand up for themselves. Maybe if people meet me and see hat I’m not scary, they won’t be as scared of others.

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It figures that a NINJA would be first…do you study masaaki hatsumi grandmaster ninja??? You should!

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I study Safety Care nonviolent crisis intervention, SAPA, NCI, and Skip care. I only believe in physical force as a way of maintaining safety without causing further harm.

I am truely in alot of pain but without my girlfriend I’d be truely lost. She takes care of me, and sees to it that things aren’t so hard…and it takes alot out of her…I just hope I haven’t turned into an energy vampire or something I’ve known a few of those and they’re really low and scummy. We went friday night and saturday to galena illinois for our third year anniversary, and it was just great. Ate at a very fance german resturant, I had the saurbraten meal which is slow roasted beef with vinegar and wine sauce…mmmm! Very good.

I say save up minni, and go get a really good meal with you significant other or family member and live it up. You’re a moderator now but that doesn’t mean that YOU CAN"T POST.

I would expect EVERY moderator to post as much as they could and make as many topics as we could possibly imagine.

I’ve been playing zelda 1 for Nintendo Entertainment System. NES.

And man this is one of the hardest games EVER!!!

Happy halloween by the way!!

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I’m taking a class right now on propaganda and were being taught how to not be brainwashed by mainstream media and to find grassroots journalism. I don’t have the attention span to read your whole post but that was in caps and stood out to me because that’s exactly what we’re learning about. I change my notion, I will read your whole post by the end of today because it seems relevant, interesting and important. I’m sick so it’s hard to focus more than usual but hopefully this NyQuil helps. Glad you’re back Patrick.

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:smile: I don’t have much to say nowadays, things have been quiet. My mom had a few troubles, and I was a bit depressed, but I’m better now :slight_smile: My PTSD has been quiet, my OCD is a pain in the ass, but my skizzle is under control.

I’m writing a book! So I’ve been busy with that. Writing a psychotic break, I figure it could be triggering but it isn’t.

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lookup (essence of ninjutsu).

This is written by the grandmaster of ninjutsu, and his name is Masaaki Hatsumi.

He is very brilliant and VERY VERY philosophical. I want you to know ninja star that I have been studying ninjutsu from Masaaki and Steven Hayes since I was a little child reading my fathers books on the subject.

GET A BLOWGUN, and have fun target shooting a cork dart board or something to that matter.

KEEP BEING NINJA, it’s the only way to survive the apocalypse

Most ninja were farmers who made their own weapons and ropes. (they made rope out of womens hair even because they didn’t have the american hemp industry. They’d have to invade indonesia to get hemp rope know what I mean??)

Ninja are resourceful, wise, and already indoctrinated to the hippest means.

That’s all of you guys, if you but the book: (essence of ninjutsu)…you will be a true philosopher of many things.

I love your photo on your profile did you draw or make that or did you find someone?

No I didn’t, Rhubot found it :slight_smile:

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I missed you too big guy.

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I was raised in very many ways, minnii…but most of all I learned. But now it’s nothing but panic and confusions and corruptions it seems…I’ll post something for you to understand a bit about the (tip of the spear) units and combatives…

ONe of those men were the LESSER EVILS of my career, he said ( flag his world, and fuck you bogger)…Robert was high into training airborne rangers and green berets…and I called him the (angry gnome).