so i know i am supposed to be all happy on Christmas and all of that but this year its like bleh you know, i think i’ve just grown up a bit more, i haven’t bothered much and i’m not listening to all the hype,
I was listening to some crazy xmas music in the pub last night and it was just ridiculous and i couldn’t help laugh bc the music was just so fkd up, also whats with all the unseasonable politics seems like a witch hunt tbh, they also said it would snow and it was more like slush and i cant help thinking about global warming
i am trying to enjoy it its just harder now for some reason, i’m either getting grumpy in my old age or reality is setting in,
I know it can be overwhelming. And we feel the pressure to be “on” all of the time. Buts it an unrealistic expectation we place on ourselves that we need to be happy all of the time. Hopefully, at best, we can enjoy some parts of it.
i am trying to njoy it, you are right about being on all the time,
i think i’m a bit more relaxed this xmas so it might seem like i don’t care as much
i seem to be contradicting myself now, i try and be happy all the time as well, i’ve been told it is a coping mechanism like i am trying to mask my pain somehow, i know what they mean because i always say ‘if i dont laugh i will probably cry’ lol my dad did it as well, laughing in the face of adversity and all of that
My biggest stress is not being done shopping and everywhere is crowded. Ì think I have a good idea what I need to get but that still involves going in to the stores.
@FatMama
Can you shop online? That can relieve some of the pressure.
@daydreamer
You’re not contradicting yourself. You’re simply sharing about another part of you. We are complex. We have many parts. Thank you for sharing some of yours.
I can’t find all the things online but I got quite a bit online. I’m hoping i can rush through it. A lady crocheted a scarf and a basket for my niece. I’m getting that tomorrow. Mostly I need gift cards which require me to drive all over the place.
Christmas has never been my thing but I’m enjoying it this year more than ever before because I’m seeing everyone that I love in the middle of being diagnosed sza or bp2 or OCD or whatever combination of those I have. It is hectic and there are bad moments and nonsense but hopefully I can block that out. I probably can’t.
its a bit better now, things seem to be panning out ok, i was worried about it but i shouldn’t have,
i think its just really over hyped a lot but i like the fact that the traditional xmas is normally overlooked by most which means that i have it all to myself haha,
haven’t done cards this year but i’ve received a few which is nice, and it was nice seeing some decorations out and about, the place i go did some nice stuff for it like painting bobbles and making paper chains, the trees are nice and i like some of the jumpers and hats.
I’ll be going carolling tomorrow which will be my highlight, better than the normal stuff on the radio anyway, also saw santa today with the kids giving them a cuddle lol
a couple of my friends are totally against xmas this year but i think thats sad bc it can be even more depressing without it,
so here’s to all the lonely souls this xmas to the lost and the suffering, i hope you all feel better soon, take care, xxx
its usually mt Sis that hosts dinner but my mum wants to do it this year and she has really bad eyesight lol, i hope she can do it but she never was the best cook in the world but i have always been grateful lol, i hope i can cook a roast for my own family some time lol (if i ever have one)
to the lost and the suffering, i hope you all feel better soon, take care, xxx
