When i was four my parents took custody of my cousin.
we grew up like sisters she is a year older than me.
Her mom has severe schizophrenia.
When we grew up i got Schizophrenia she got schizoaffective disorder.
We were so close, and she helped me a lot with my psychosis.
She committed suicide in June.
I don’t know………. I don’t like talking about this, but my pdoc seemed to have forgotten.
more concerned about stupid intrusive weird sexual thoughts i used to get.
They don’t even bother me anymore.
I reminded her and she said “oh, why haven’t you told me about this?”
I did……? Are they typing in those computers or playing solitary?
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Sometimes I’m amazed at peoples memories considering I have a real good memory myself.
I’m so sorry for your loss.
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that’s horrible to experience for you? I hope you can find peace.
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i am sorry 
for you.
sending some angels to you. 
take care 
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Thank you!
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sounds hard, i dont think they are playing solitaire but you could ask them if you are worried about it, i’m guessing you dont think they care.
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Oh I’m so sorry claire… This is horrible.
We’re here for you.
Maybe you can find peace in some moments of your life.
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I am sorry about your friend!
Sometimes you have to remind the doctors, or tell them what`s bothering you that day and you want to talk about it.**
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I have told my pdoc that I was seeing a therapist, I even gave her name.
Last time I brought up the fact that I saw my therapist to my psychiatrist - she totally forgot and seemed surprised that I was seeing a therapist - Go figure 
I’m sorry. I think in my life I have expected professionals to be more perceptive to my pain…I don’t really think everyone has the same level of emotional depth. It might be helpful to find a therapist who you like at this time because you are suffering a deep loss.
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