I finally have a warm pdoc

hi. going to the pdoc now is totally a treat for me. until now every pdoc i tried was painfully disregardful of my feelings.

what bothers me now are the memories. all those years wasted in suffering.

i had one pdoc for a long long while who i am having trouble forgiving for all he did wrong to me.

i heard many of his patients shocked their families by committing suicide. this doesn’t surprise me.

i don’t want to forgive, but how do you forget?

judy

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They say time heals all wounds …

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Figure the doctor was suffering his own coldness. I’m a firm believer in “What goes around comes around.” I had a doctor, actually more than one, who was abuse of his authority and it is not a pretty memory but I remember him with a mental picture of me speaking up to him and making him feel quite uncomfortable. I know it is just fantasy but there is victory in remembering him in fantasy, not nightmare.

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thanks. i also have a really nice social worker. hopefully i can work this thing out.

judy

I believe a woman pdoc will always be better as woman are more nurturing and listen better.

It’s almost like a mothers touch, going through psychotic times etc it means alot to have a woman doc.

Just my opinion

I would feel very stupid telling my problems to a man

me too. but I have a man psychiatrist now.
I used to have a woman and I really liked her but had to go to the more experienced & renowned psychiatrist that I am seeing now

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I’ve only had one pdoc in my life. In therapy I kept going over the same issue because I didn’t know what else to talk about. Psychotherapy is too expensive to sit there and say nothing. Psychotherapy didn’t help much. My therapist was distant and unemotional, which doesn’t work well with a person who is very withdrawn. I just wasn’t ready to benefit from psychotherapy. I’ve been thinking that maybe I am ready to do AA fourth and fifth steps.

I have had one bad apple among the 27 or so psychiatrists and therapists I have had. One really warm one! One female psychiatrist whom I was attracted to, but she was asleep at the switch. My present psychiatric nurse makes me feel as though I am interesting. I don’t like it, and would like to stop talking so much about myself. She tricks me into talking at length about my mind and my behavior as though it were interesting to her. I catch her yawning every session.

My present pdoc is a lovely lady too. She helped me get admitted to hospital when i desperately needed it and she explained why i have sz in a very clear way. I feel fortunate to have her treat me.