I could easily go back in history and find your posts Crystal. I remember a good chunk of your delusions. Its a circle with you that you need to break out of.
Often when we are in that state , sometimes we donāt even remember the things we thought, said and did.
I know what you mean. I was also ashamed of going to the pharmacy. Iām scared of people accidently finding my meds at home etcā¦
But thereās also the fact that I have a new identity now. You have to accept who you are and fight the shame and stigma.
I never was going to kill anyone or myself not even running into traffic or something
therefore its very mild
if it puts you in hospital its unlikely to be mild.
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Iām not contributing in this thread further. But if you continue on this same path that you were in the say anything thread recently and posting here, you are going to break me down to reminding you eventually.
People just want me to suffer
When I was in psychosis, it wasnāt just me suffering.
I just canāt accept that Iām āszā because to me its a very serious illness and life ruining
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You and me both
I know Crystal. I said that exact thing in the say anything threadā¦but denial doesnt make it any less true.
Deny things like this does you no good.
on that note, im out like I said. Good luck.
Why are people expecting me to lie and say I accept my āillnessā
Isnāt it that one knows oneself the best
I had cognitive decline, anxiety, etc. for 1-2 years or so before I had my substance induced first psychotic break from weed or marijuana. It was skunk weed. I also tried salvia which is a strong hallucinogen. I think I even tried like 20x or something. I was stupid.
I noticed in community college I had first became aware of memory decline or problems retaining information in my working and long term memory. I thought it was from monsters and lack of water or dehydration! That was even way before I started getting Cs or Ds/Fs on tests lol.
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Is it possible that my IQ has decreased
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Itās probable. And it will decrease more if you donāt take meds.
But itās extremely unimportant to live a fulfilling life
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Is there any proof
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IQ does not matter. Good for you.
If you want to be sure, take a test.
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I felt like I had dementia or some ā ā ā ā lol. I was a ānormieā until I got sick. I mean, Iām more concerned with not working, showering, and brushing teeth, and cooking my own meals now.
I think thatās part of āIQā.
I told my doctor I felt like I lost 20-30 IQ points. Over the years, I tried improving my cognition with supplements and training, but it depends on too many factors. I probably lost 10 points, not 30. I test online at 110ish-120 max now. It sucks.
Sz makes you dump as ā ā ā ā . Forgetting everything, not able to read or properly talk D:
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