So I think I may have Paranoid Schizophrenia or something… I isolate and leave the house only I really have to otherwise I’ll try and avoid it as much as possible. And when I am in public (even in the apartment building hallway) I have severe anxiety and get a really stiff neck that sometimes at the thought of someone watching me my neck twotches and I turn my head fast… It’s so ■■■■■■■ embarrassing especially when it happens right in front of someone… I absolutely hate it. It’s paranoia and voices… The voices aren’t severe but when I’m really stressed they can be irritable. I have no social life anymore other than my very supportive girlfriend and confused/worried mother. Once in a blue moon I’ll have good day in public moderately anxious, making eye contact and fighting the paranoia with ease. Obviously I don’t have a job either, which isn’t good for my self esteem but I’ve had about 5 jobs in the past year. I’m confident for a solid 2ish weeks… But now I’m just hopeless. I’ve been diagnosed with (low side of the spectrum) autism. And I read that Paranoid Schizophrenia has many similar symptoms. But nce I got diagnosed with autism (about 2ish years ago maybe) my symptoms are worsening. And I just don’t know what to do anymore, I contemplate suicide on a daily basis, I just wanna know what you guys think if anyone can relate… thank you.
What you describe is something most of us experience as sz’s. You’re doing right by posting about it on this site. Maybe you should talk to someone about getting on medication. Those voices can be scary. Do you have access to a case manager and some type of therapy? Some support from that direction might help. You’re always welcome on this site. Maybe you can gain insights into your own problems here.
Have you got a psychiatrist you can speak to about all of this.
It must be very frightening for you right now.
I would recommend seeing a psychiatrist and getting on medication, life can get better for you.
Yes , unfortunately we’re not doctors here, and can’t diagnose. You should definitely talk to a doctor.
Thank you guys for responding. I really appreciate it
I agree you should talk to a dr or someone else that you feel comfortable opening up to.
If you dont feel good with someone try going to someone else till you find that person that you feel good with or about or better with atleast.
Im sorry for you to have suicidal thoughts and such difficulties but this can improve and get better.
Medication could help you.
Lots of people say that medicine helps them.
Maybe Being kind and understanding to yourself and if your “up for it” making a care plan for yourself and then presnting it to your Dr.
For some it might be empowering to make ones own careplan for others they might not be well enough to make suggestions of what they think might help them.
Hope you get some good and genuine help.