I’m ashamed to say I’ve never been able to completely shake off the effects of it. I’ve talked about my experiences on forums such as this one , but hardly at all to mental health professionals. I struggle when it comes to having a healthy and solid level of self confidence, esteem, and worth. Quite a lot of the time I feel useless and stupid. A good score on a high range IQ test gives temporary relief, but sooner rather than later I start thinking ‘Almost anyone could’ve done well at that’.
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I wasn’t bullied by schoolmates but i did experience being picked on by certain family members. I too feel it doesnt matter how hard i try, i still suffer from poor self esteem. Self doubts included. 
What do you believe is the escape? I have never found therapy to fix it. And im never really offered it anymore either. I feel once youre diagnosed with sz, medical professionals give up and expect you to just ignore it and getby
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Good question. I honestly don’t know. Some would,no doubt, say CBT. However I don’t want my very real experiences dismissed and trivialised as ‘you only think that due to faulty thinking’
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I was picked on a lot. I’m talking to my current therapist about how badly I’ve been treated as an adult but I’ve never addressed the bullying from childhood
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Ive tried cbt before, mostly for anxiety. And it did have an effect but idk, it also had unintended consequences. Id love to try it again. But for employment purposes and motivational purposes.
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I’m not downplaying your experience with bullying at all. It must have been mental torture to endure that but many of us have low self esteem and low confidence. I’ve worked for nearly 40 years with no self esteem or confidence. I guess people either don’t want to pick on an easy target or maybe they like me a little. I just do my job and try to be friendly. I’m a prime example of what someone can accomplish with no self esteem or confidence not to mention dealing with a little thing called schizophrenia.
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Sorry. Should’ve kept to myself. Will try not to mention the subject any more.
No, I don’t want to be responsible for someone feeling uncomfortable about what they want to post. My point was more that I was showing other people that they can still accomplish things with low self esteem or low confidence.
Let’s just I’m highly sensitive to 'I’m not downplaying your experience… but ’ type comments. It’s usually used,in my experience , to dismiss or trivialise something that’s happened to you.
Well, I didn’t use it that way.
I accept that. 2023.
If it’s still bothering you then you absolutely should talk about it without guilt. My main concern is that you are continuing to give people who hurt you and took your power away in the past even more power over you in the present. It would be helpful to find ways to stop giving them free rent in your head. I personally understand how hard this is. (You know how much I love my mom. Not.)
(((hugs)))
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I’ve been bullied for a long time due to possible autism and because of that I developed severe cptsd and psychosis. Doctors said trauma plays a role in development of psychosis.
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I know you’re right, but getting past it is easier said than done. I do my best to be a good Dad,granddad, and gt granddad.
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My self esteem is shattered, in bits because of bad experiences and its shaped me as a person i am today. I have a personality disorder as well as schizophrenia and agoraphobia, i doubt talking therapy would help? Because its who i am now if that makes sense, i can’t have a personality transplant
It did more for me than meds ever have.
You can change over time, but only if you believe it is possible.
Im glad it worked for you
Unfortunately i don’t believe i can change any, things are really bad and always have been
Luckily i have my husband taking care of me otherwise id be even worse off
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