It’s been 6-8 years since my days of being bullied in high school. I have a bunch of confidence now and last year was by far my best year and things have just been getting better.
But I can’t seem to forget it. It’s a repeated marathon of thoughts that keep circulating my mind daily and it’s so constant.
I try to get to sleep but end up staying up the whole night and just tending to my rapid hive outbreaks.
I don’t have sth against these guys. If I met them on the street if prob just say hi and continue as if nothing happened. That’s the thing.
I’m not even mad at the person anymore .its the pain and trauma that hurts. And knowing that it took what felt like a lifetime to ease into the path of recovery has me feeling effed up.
At least you are a noble prize winner, its normal for someone like you to be bullied by normal or dumb ass people, be confident and follow your way in life,
You could try an “emotion freeing technique” which involves tapping acupressure points on the body while saying affirmations, it works because tapping those points bypasses the fear center (the amygdala) and causes you to engage with the limbic system, so you’re basically talking to your subconscious when you do this.
Here’s a technique for freeing the emotional blocks related to bullying (just replace “I’m being bullied” with “I’ve been bullied.” Change the tense to past.
Generally it takes multiple sessions, so when the old emotional patterns come back you can undo them with another EFT session. Eventually they’ll stay undone.
I’m so happy that you would tell me that.
