Well I do have one recurring occurance when I have my Breakdowns.
Everytime I have them it feel’s like im on Methamphetamine. Literally like somebody just spiked my fudge round with a dose of meth and I ate it. Which I actually thought one time when I had a breakdown.
I do know my breakdowns feel like that. Very Paranoid, Very High Energy, Losing touch w/ reality.
I am Dx’d with MDD. I hear a lot about losing touch with reality. but is it the same as losing insight?
There was a phase of intense paranoia i went through with no insight at all. Even though i was going through that, i was still in charge of weather i did something or not.
I dont think the hallucinations, paranoia, and delusions made me have psychosis or out of control.
I have heard people remark here that some episodes are brief. Hopefully yours will be too. They did not mention an exact time frame. Remember to ask a friend or family member to help if you are stuggling. Then the crisis lines maybe too.
I don’t know if your asking what losing touch with reality is like, but if so, Yeah. It’s like not knowing what’s real or not real. Like one thing that happens to me is I am for sure earth which I live in is Hell and people around me are souls that are dead , but talking to me, that’s why I get freaked out, cause there talking to me , but dead.
Or also thinking you or someone else can control the T.V or the Weather. I thought my Grandma controlled the T.V one time, what channel I watched (even though I had the remote) and actually produced show’s that I watched ( Christian Channel).
Kind of like gaining these Epiphany’s that you never knew, but couldn’t seem more real and nobody can tell you it’s not real.
It all depends how long my breakdowns are. They could last anywhere from 30 minutes to hours to day’s in a row. That’s when they get bad though. One time I had a breakdown for it was either 5 or 7 day’s straight of no sleeping, no eating, losing touch with reality type stuff. Just stuff that is so weird when you think of it when your in your right mind, and you could even get a laugh out of probably, but stuff that makes no possible sense at all
well, da*n, i guess i did lose touch with reality to some point then.
but certainly not queit as bad as what you are saying. not all of your post, but a chunck of it, describes somes of what i went through almost to a tee.
What can you do to help yourself though, since you already know she not cheating and , well, the paranoid delusion is coming back to you???
I wonder if you should post this in the unusual beliefs section and see what advice they can offer.
I think you should also maybe write a note telling your wife what is going on with you if she dont already know. i say write a note because writing her is a calmer way of doing it.
I think it might be worth a try to call the clinic and ask for an additional earlier appointment.
While i did share some of your experience (maybe/probably?) - that talking dead people thing is too much. Tell them you need some kind of extra medication, maybe just a weeks worth, to get you through the break through symptoms before shot renewal.
Well what can I do? I can try not to obsess on that thought and get more paranoid, but it’s really hard. Also what can I do, I can really hope my shot is close to due, cause that’s really the only thing that helps with the paranoia, delusions, breakdowns.
It isn’t a full proof shot where if you get it all that stuff magically goes away, but it does calm them down.
Well writing a note would probably help with my wife, but she already knows everything that goes and why I get paranoid and think she’s cheating. I’ve told her it is because of my shot. She tells me not to blame it on the shot although I try not to, I really can’t help , but get paranoid when my shot is due, then start to think all the stupid paranoid thoughts I think. Which could lead into a breakdown if she’s at work late and not here
Yeah, I just got my shot today and the symptoms started last night, So it starts around every 3 weeks. I know that, I just have to hope the symptoms won’t come on before I get my shot.
I’m on Invega shot every 3 weeks. The max dose too. So really theres no where to go from here since it’s the max dose and the doctor isn’t even supposed to be giving it but once a month, I think she made an exception for me and now it’s 3 weeks.
Thank Goodness or I would have 1 full week of pretty much wondering, is this the day I’m going to go paranoid and lose it.
when i had my major breakdown at 22 years, the nerves inside were shattered. the pain of feeling that nervousness and anxiety was unreal. judy