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You .
Are .
Too .
Kind …
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(Boring Journal-ness Part 14) - (Audio Scribble Part 1)
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(Boring Journal-ness Part 15) - (Audio Scribble Part 2)
" That’s Why I Know My Life Is Outta Luck Fool " - Coolio
I Have Been Lisseneing To Thus SonggG For A Lil While Now (last nite n such) ,
Thus One …
I Have A Mini Booklet I Created , With Song’s I Have Gathered As I Was Afraid Of Tha Darkness For A -While ,
Every Song In My Mini Booklet Is A Song I Love and Has Pulled Me Throo Tha Dark While I Was Lost Deeply Within It … ,
Thus SonggG (by) Mark Kozelek Is Jus A Quick Example ,
and For Me It’s True , His Choice Of A Cover SonggG Is Pretty Rad … ,
But Tis True ,
" still I love to see tha sun go down , and around and around …" …
Is there a reason you type like that? I don’t mean to be rude but I’m just curious. Have you always typed like that @ATARI?
Is There A Reason Your Voyse Sounds Tha Way It Does (???) ,
Naught Being Rude Either But Ya Know ,
Individuality and Such …
(Boring Journal-ness Part 16) - (Past Scribble Scribble)
(Silly Notes To A Scientist) - (Blah Blah Blah)
(Boring Late Evening Part 1)
" “traceable” ,
Tis A Shadow , OR Some Sort Of Breathing Screen Shadow Of What Is Beyond Our Reach , Back To Our Divine Lyke Selves Perhaps … ,
So In Short To Disagree Before Agreeing To Disagree , That , We Are Indeed OURSELVES , Naught Made Of “star stuff” … ,
No Offense To Tha Beyond Our Wildest Dreams Field Of Yummy Poppies and Such ,
Jus Sayin … . "
(Boring Late Evening Part 2)
" Hello There sleepoptimistic , It Is e(Y)e sleepoptimistic (!!!) , I Am Agreeing To Disagree With Whatchoo Haven’t Evn Sayde Yet Yet … , We Are Born Within Humanistic Birthing , and Believe It OR Naught But We All Liyve Within Thus Blue Bubble Which Is Actually A STAR (!!!) , But Oh No , Oh No , Here Comes Tha Ending To Tha Wild Poppies Feast , We Aren’t Trees . THEE END . Have A Great Dai Errrone (!!!) "
(Boring Late Evening Part 3)
" Hmm , Hello There sleepoptimistics , I Have Read Thus $croll A Billion NO (!) , A TRILLION Times (!!!) , and I Shall Quote It For You , " hello earthlinGs , you lyve in outerspace , and so do trees , Within tha start button push from thine creator , tha first was your home , a . S.T.A.R. … , so we are made of . star stuff . byebye " , AHEM , So There Ya Go , From None Other Then , Well , How Shall Eyes Saye Thus (?) , AHEM (!!!) , A $CROLL (!) . "
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and Since I Have NO Friends ,
NO Girlfriend ,
NO Social Life ,
Thus / That Is How I Sometymes Spend My Evening’s ,
It isn’t As Sad As It Looks ,
I Once (while I was in love) Wrote Down Notes To Myself , With Thee Intent To Share With A Different Schizophrenic Community , I Wrote Down Tha Word " LAUGHTER " ,
and I Put That Word Into A Box ,
As If To Say ,
No Matter What ,
You Can’t Erase Someone’s Humor Deep Within Themselves ,
I Personally Have Been Strapped To A Bed Twice ,
Chocked By Police Officers TWICE ,
Tazed (by) A Police Officer ONCE , (for a long friggin tyme too) ,
Tha List Could Go On ,
But There’s No Real Point ,
Not Looking For Sympathy ,
But Remember ,
There Are Some Things You Have To Face ,
and One Day We All Will Pass Away ,
So I Do Continue With Spirituality ,
With Tha Hope You Don’t Wake Up Scared Out Of Your Mynde ,
You Can’t Erase Someones Fun Weird Carayzee Laughter ,
Nor Can You Erase Innocence ,
We As Schizo’s have Seen Plenty Of Tha Dark Nites ,
and Me Personally Prefer Summer Days With a Mist Of Rain ,
Altho Tha S.T.A.R.S. At Night Never Get Old … ,
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(Pointless Journal Scribbling) - (But Why) - (Nevermynde)
(Boring Journal-ness Part 17) - (Scribble Scribble Part 6)
So here I Am ,
Another Nite Of Boring Self - Improvement ,
I Tried To Sleep ,
But My Awesome Pup Woke Me Up ,
She’s A Weirdo ,
So Self - Improvement ,
I Have Found That I Tried To Be What She / He Needs and Found That Within Such “improvement” ,
Trying To Impress Who tha Fizzle Ever ,
Has Got Me Nowhere ,
Thus May Sound Silly OR “dumb” OR Pointless But Tha Last Tyme I Tried To Please Someone In My Family ,
I Killed Many Flies ,
They Somehow Got Into Tha House During That Summer ,
and ,
I Smashed Them (almost) ALL Of Them , ,
Now I AM Sure You See Where I Am Going With Thus ,
and One Of Tha Cool Kid’s Would Say ,
“WHO GIVES A FUDGE ITS JUST FLIES!” ,
and I Disagree Completely ,
next Tyme You Are Around A Fly (altho summer’s almost over I think they disappear during winters) ,
Either OR ,
Notice How They Move Their Arms and Tha Way They Look At You ,
As If To Say ,
" hee hee we got em now!!! " ,
All In Some nature Way Of Joking Around From Tiny Creature All Tha Way To Large Creature With Fingers … ,
Point Is As A Lil While Back There Was (could still be) People Protesting Against A Murder and They had Signs That Said ,
“BLACK LIVES MATTER” ,
and I’m Sure (I don’t have friends so I dunno for sure) ,
But I Am Sure There Was / Is A group That Angrily Says ,
" ALL LIVES MATTER " ,
and Me Personally Would Agree and Even Throw In tha White Flag Of ,
" EVEN FLY"S MATTER " ,
and That’s When I Would Get Locked Up ,
Probs , Naught Completely Sure … ,
Point Within thus Boring Electronic Etching Is ,
We Need To Start Carrying Each Other and Stop With Tha Pointless Competition’s ,
Those Get Us Nowhere Except For One Being Trying To Impress Another Being With DISK - HUSH- TING - NESS ,
I Say That Cause Underneath These Gaymes (by) Saying “ONLI BLACK LIVES MATTER” Can Cause and May Have Caused Riots From All Tha Spectrum Of Colours ,
and Who Wins (???) ,
Naught Me Thaz Fur Sho ,
N E Hoo ,
Let’s End Tha Gaymes ,
TALK To Each Other ,
and Maybe Fynde A Way Out Of These Mayzes … ,
Cause There Could Be A Beautiful Rainbow Waiting For Us …
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(Electronic Guilt Etching) - (Fly’s Are Cool)
(Boring Journal-ness Part 18) (Audio Scribble Part 3)
(get Thus One) - (tis good)
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(Boring Journal-ness Part 19) (Short Scribble Part 1)
So I Left Home ,
D(Y)D My Thing ,
Came Back ,
and Respecting My D@D More So Then In A Long T(Y)me ,
My Subject Today isn’t About Him Tho ,
Yesterday I Lissened To A Song (by) DAFT PUNK ,
Where , (I think its tha song SOMETHING ABOUT US) ,
Where If Tha First Verse Was TRUTH Then Tha First (and rest) Was Lies ,
and Flipped ,
Where Tha First Verse Was LIES Then Tha First Chorus (and rest) Was TRUTH ,
It Seemed Meaningfull To Me ,
Which Leads Me To Thus ,
)))NEVER HAD NEVER WILL((((
)))ALWAYS HAD ALWAYS WILL(((( ,
Which Within , Those With , Don’t Give A Fudge ,
and Those Without , Wishes , Wants , and Even Prays To Have What ALWAYS HAS Has … ,
Altho tha Truth Of Tha Matter Is ,
IT DOESNT ■■■■■■■ MATTER (!!!) ,
So What Does That Say As PINK FLOYD Sayd Long Ago ,
" with or without that’s what the fightings all about " - PINK FLOYD … ,
&
" I can’t live with or without you " - U2 … ,
" why do you get all the love in the world " - NINE INCH NAILS … ,
Sadly Without and Happily With it All ,
A Disgrace ,
A Disgrace To Tha Human Rayse … ,
So Ask Yourself As I Electronically Etch Here ,
All Within My Personal Boring Quality ,
Ask Yourself ,
" where do e(Y)e stand ? " ,
See If Anything Comes To Mynde …
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(sadly) - (happily) - (happi)
(Boring Journal-ness Part 20) (Short Spiritual Scribble Part 1)
Another Dai Ov Music and Smokes ,
So Here It Is ,
First , Lyrical Example … ,
Example 1.) " if you burn them all together you get close to the truth " ,
and There You Have It ,
During Thus Thesis-ness ,
It Doesn’t Matter Tha Fairytale BEFORE (OR) AFTER ,
It’s Simplistically Tha During and Such N Such ,
Tha During As In Your Moments To Moments ,
Days To Days ,
Months To Months ,
&
Years To Years ,
All Woven Tightly As You " Crawl Out Tha Maze ." … ,
Burn Them All Together You Get Close To Tha Truth (!!!) , ,
PERHAPS … ,
OK Back To Music ,
As I Study Trying To Fynde NEW Wayze To Create Myne Own … ,
Peace Be Unto You …
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(TBC) - (God Willing)
(Boring Journal-ness Part 21) (Short Spiritual Scribble Part 2)
I Spent Thus Day Alone and Avoiding Any Contact With 3 Dimensionalness ,
So I Slept … ,
and Slept … ,
& Slept … ,
Knivey Heartbeater (MY PUP!!!) Slept Close (by) and We Dreamt Most Of Tha Dai Away … ,
My “caretaker” OR Dad As Some Know Him As ,
Spent T(Y)me With Relatives and Blah Blah Blah … ,
As Tha Day Slowly Crawls (by) I Thot To Myself Thus … ,
I Care For Three-ish Things … ,
1.) Music = Individuality & Creativity
2.) Women = Hope / L.O.V.E. / & / Peace
3.) and Tha Future = " For God So Loved The World " = Birthing Of Spirituality Perhaps = Nine Inch Nails = " Why Do You Get All The Love In Tha World? " = Originality = Music = Individuality & (Creativity) = Women & Men = Birth = Tha Future .
I D(Y)D Sorta Ramble Poetically With Numbah 3 …
Hmm ,
<3 <3 <3
I Uploaded A Song I Wrote That Took About 3ish Mins To Write , It’s OK I Suppose … ,
N E Hoo ,
Back To Tha Drawing Board …
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(TBC) - (God Willing Part 2)
**Keep on writing-you will be able to look back on this…hope it`s helping… 
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Thanks bridgecomet ,
(Journal Boring-ness Part 22) (Self Music Part 1)
Here Is An Example Of What e(Y)e have Been Up Too … ,
Slightly Embarrassing To Post Here … ,
But Here It Be … ,
So I Fynde That When I Lissen To Music I Fynde Myself Excited To Pick Up Tha Guitar … ,
Not ALL THA T(Y)me … ,
But Sometymes … ,
If Anyone (and thus includes you bridgecomet) … ,
If Anyone Has Anything To Say About My Music Good OR Bad , Hook Me Up With A Post Of Whatevah and PERHAPS I Mite Be Able To Come Up With A Nifty Album … ,
and Within My Boring Journal-ness ,
I Picked Tha Guitar Back Up Because Of A Hope For L.O.V.E. … ,
So If You Don’t Lyke My Music , Don’t Blame Me (!!!) … ,
Ok Thaz Enough … ,
Hit Me Up If You Gotta Suggestion (!!!)
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**You should write down your lyrics.
Very good voice–carry on! 
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(Journal-ness Excerpt) (Music N Such)
Thank You For Tha Compliment … ,
Lst Nite I Couldn’t Stop With Writing and Singing , Been A-while Since I Felt That Way …
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(Journal-Boring-Ness Part 23) (Lost and Losing - Regaining Hope)
Naught Much To Say … ,
I Would Rather Be Off Of Meds … ,
I Have No Choice But To Take Them … ,
For e(Y)e Am Terrified Of Needles … ,
As Tha Curtain Closes and I Am Staring At A Thickly painted Wall … ,
I Am Inside Of Tha Holocaust … ,
My Imagination Can Get Vivid Sometymes … ,
So I Wonder As To Why I Am Naught Allowed To Have Dopamine … ,
Is it Tha Sayme Reason They Won’t Prescribe Me Xanax (???) ,
I Actually Am 24/7 Aware Of My Body … ,
Xanax Would Actually Help , and I Wouldn’t Need Tha Rest … ,
So Jus Lyke Tha Dopamine … ,
and Tha Xanax … ,
Laughing For No Reason Is INCORRECT and WRONG … ,
Upset Slightly … ,
S’all Gud Tho … ,
I Dunno Maybe There’s A Bit I Am Unaware Of … ,
Perhaps It’s Obvious … ,
and As One Band Would Say ,
" There’s No One We Can Blame!!! " … ,
(TBC) (God Willing)
(Journal Boring-ness Part 24) - (___________)
So I Have Been Home For A Few Days … ,
I Signed Myself Into A Facility With Doctors Counselours and Nurses … ,
Thus T(Y)me My Dad Drove Me There ,
Instead Of Police Officers … ,
It Was My Decision To Do Such A Weird Thing … ,
You See Dear Reader , I Was Feeling Already Dead … ,
I Wasn’t Suicidal But The Nite Before I Signed Myself In I Got Angry At My Pup … ,
I Didn’t Hurt Her OR ANYTHING Such As That … ,
But She Was Being Herself and Being All Carayzee ,
and I Got Angry … ,
So With Little Said ,
I Said To Myself ,
That , That’s Worse Then Suicide … ,
So I Decided For Tha First T(Y)me To Ask For Help … ,
It Went OK , They Upped My Dosage Of INVEGA , Now I Am On 12 Mg’s … ,
I Thot About My PUP Thee Entire T(Y)me I Was There … ,
I Looked Out Of Tha WIndows Of Tha Facility and Asked Tha Birds and Tha Sky If She Was Ok … ,
A Few Birds Flew and I Said , " Yeah shes ok " … ,
After A Couple Days I Was Released and I Came Back Home … ,
Oh and I have A Bill ,
It’s Expensive … ,
But I Got It Taken Care Of … ,
Point Is I Nvr Ask For Help ,
and When I Do , I Usually Am Disappointed … ,
I STILL Have Voices , But Since About Two Ta Three Years Ago ,
I See Very Little As Far As Hallucinations Are Concerned … ,
So No Biggie ,
Which Remyndes Me ,
I Lissened To BIGGIE SMALLS Today and Things Such and Such As Seems To Be Getting Better … ,
Before I Signed Myself In I Would Try To Go Outside To Smoke A Smoke But I Would Get Closer and Edge Closer To Tha Front Door Everytime I Stepped Outside , I Noticed It and Was Aware Of Being Pushed Into A Corner But Didn’t Think Much Of It … ,
Finally Tha Day Before I Called Tha Facility , I Stepped Outside and Stood A Half A Foot Away From Tha Front Door , and Realized I Was Trapped … , Pushed and Pulled To Stay Inside As If Naught To Bother Anyone Human Being On Tha Planet … ,
So I Took A Drag From Tha Cigarette and Walked Back Inside … ,
Naught Long After I Got Mad At My Pup … ,
and Said To Tha Universe , " FINE , I WILL GO THERE. " … ,
and I D(Y)D ,
and I Returned ,
and As I First Got Home My Dad Unlocked Tha Front Door and Walked Inside and My Pup Chased Him As He Walked Into His Bedroom and He Said , " shes looking for you , she does this everytime I come home " … ,
I Laughed and Am Smiling Right Now , Cause That PUP Is Something Else … ,
You See Dear Reader , SHE WAS ALMOST CAUGHT IN A POOL OF DEATH BECAUSE OF HER PREVIOUS OWNER … ,
Longish Story Short ,
It Took Me Five Minutes To Walk Into Tha Yard and Gently Pick Her Up and Carry Her Home … ,
Her Lyfe has Naught Been Easy ,
and If You Are Reading Thus STILL , Mine Hasn’t Been Easy and Probs Yours As Well … ,
So As I Ask Tha Heavens , " WHAT IS THE POINT OF THAT ? " … ,
and If That Doesn’t Darken Your Space , I Don’t Know What Can … ,
So We Are Born , and Pushed Into Thus Universe , and Here We Are … ,
I Have Said Before , Dark Sick Twisted Humor IS At Thee End Of A Rope … ,
So Jus Untie It … , Tha NexXxt Step Isn’t Going To Change Anything About Tha Regret After A Quick Conversation With Him/Her As You Step Into Tha Light … ,
We Are Here For A Reason … ,
Yes To be Happi … ,
Yes To Fall In Love … ,
Yes To Hold A Hand … ,
Yes To Drink Like A Freak … ,
Yes To Regret Those Stupid Mistakes … ,
Yes To Wish Upon a Star … ,
Yes To Be YOU … ,
Yes To Breathe Quietly … ,
Yes To Scream Into Tha Nite … ,
Yes To Drop Tha Ball … ,
Yes To Do It All Again … ,
Yes To Find Your Friend … ,
Yes It’s Going To Be Alright … ,
Yes Go Safely In Tha Dreaded Nite … ,
Yes To Go Slowly Into That Coffin … ,
Yes To Wake Up and Dream Again … ,
Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes … ,
I Dunno ,
I Miss Some Girls In My Lost Helpless Lyfe … ,
But Tha Last One Was My Ending … ,
In Many Ways … ,
N E Hoo I have A SonggG For You … ,
I Don’t Play Video Games …
(A Promise Is A Promise) - (I ■■■■■■ Up A Couple T(Y)me$) (and You Said “we”)
(TBC) - (GOD WILLING)
(Boring Journal-Ness Part 25) (Audio Scribble Part 4)
So You Keep hearing Those Voices … ,
It’s Like Thousands Of Them … ,
and They Keep Chattering … ,
and The Meds They Gave You makes You Feel L(Y)ke Thus …
" Between Light and Nowhere " … ,
You Can’t Stop Moving … ,
It’s Like A Gallon Of Red Bull All At Once … ,
Throo-out Every Particle Within Your Cell Walls … ,
Now You Don’t Even Want To Be Alive … ,
YOU . ARE . SICK . OF . IT . ALL .
and Your Voice Crying Out " Help ME! " Is Going Unheard … ,
What Tha Fuzz Dizzle Yo … ,
WHAT . THA . FUZZ . DIZZLE .
Well , There’s Always Thus … ,
A Phone Numbah … ,
If You Are At Thee End Of Your Rope and Are About To Check To See If There’s A Way To Escape Thaz Nonsense Forever … , Remember There Is A Number You Can Call … ,
But Lez Jus Say Gonna Be Scary … ,
OK … ,
So Do Thus Instead … ,
Ask For Your Doctor OR Therapists Quick Help Phone Numbah … ,
I Personally Had One … , I Didn’t Use It … ,
Cause Thaz Jus How I Do … ,
So If You ALSO Don’t Want THAT RIDICULOUS HELP … ,
Then Fight Tha Marrow Shake With Some Anger At Tha Sky … ,
Rite Here Yo Yo … ,
" and at once I knew I was not magnificent " … ,
and Remember ,
" Is It Ours To Let Go ? " … ,
Sometimes Those Meds Are Naught Our Choice … ,
So Be Cool and Take It Slow … ,
Trust Your Doctors and Nurses … ,
and Be Open With How You Feel … ,
You Are Naught Alone In Thus .
(Always TBC) - (God Willing)
(Boring Journal-ness Part 26) (Self - Self)
Ok ,
What I Learned From Tha Artist MARILYN MANSON … ,
Ok , Step One ,
1.) Be Yourself . , If You have A Desire , Then Feel Free To Welcome Tha Fruits After Tha Labor It Takes To Absorb Tha Transition From Nothing To Something …
2.) If You make a Mistake Then Feel Free To Welcome Tha Pain From Tha Pain You Caused From Tha Mistake You Made , Even if You Have Onli Hurt Yourself … , Be It Emotionally OR Even A Sparkle Within A Screaming Sylence Of Pure Nothingness … , When Your Mistake Owns You , Sometimes All that Is Even left Within That Chaotic Wilderness Oceanic Tide Of Regret , Sometimes Pain is Sometimes All that Is Left …
3.) With #2 Said , There’s Thus … , Learn From Your Mistake OR Mistakes , Whether You Cut Yourself Slitly OR Deeply , Truth Is It Hurt , (im not a cutter but thus can be used as a metaphor) - (no offense) , So You Held Tite To Tha Blade , and Judged All That Wronged You , OR Society As A Whole Within A Mirror Of “i wouldn’t do that, im better then that” … , As You Said To Yourself When You Were Ten , That You Would Never Do Something As Stupid As Cutting Yourself … , As You Seen That Gurl On Tha News Who Jus Couldn’t Stop Cutting … , Then As You Grew Up and Older , You Realized She Was What Inspired You To Try It Out … , As She Said … , " It takes tha pain away " … , So Now You Are 5 Years In A Riptide Of Harming Yourself and Now You Feel Stupid and Fake …
4.) Finding What Truly Matters Within Your NATURAL Clean Heart , As To Swim Throo That Riptide Of #3 … , So You have Little Left Within Your Mini Booklet Of HOPE . LOVE . & . PEACE , and As You Almost Fynde Yourself No Better Then What You Constantly Judge , You Realize That … , You Are No Different Then Your Neighbor , Tha One You Hate So Much … , and Somehow , Someway , Within All Of Thus Pain , You Think maybe , Jus Maybe There’s A Plan … , Something Beyond Tha Stars During Those Midnight Hours … , and As You learn That You Too Are Also Human … , There May Be A Better Way For You To Dance In tha Garden … , Perhaps There IS , Even For You a Better Way To Dance Within Those Isolation Hours …
and Last but Naught Least … ,
Number Five … ,
5.) Thee idea Of Connectivity Always Hurt … , (ideas of reference) , As You Walk Down tha Street To Meet Your Friend , A Car Whizzes (by) A Lil Too Close … , A Dog Barks Jus a Split Second Latur , and Now Every Dog Wants To Rip You To Shreds … , A Bird Chimes Far Away As If To Say , “GO HOME OR WE WILL EAT YOU” , and You Don’t Even Know Which Way To Head … , back To Your House OR Run To Fynde Your Friend … , Either Way , Your ■■■■■■ … , Thus Connectivity Is Killing You … , and As You Look Behind You Realize You Are Within An Odd Circle … , You Didn’t Even Do Anything Wrong … , So You Look Around and Realize Tha Dog Is Barking At His/Her Owner … , A Young Dude Is Playing With Him/Her and Wrestling In Tha Middle Of Tha Yard … , but You STILL Feel Terrorized … , So What Now (???) , Another Car Whizzes (by) Even Tho You Are In Your Neighbors Yards and You Feel Slightly Scared but More So Foolish For Being Scared Of Birds and Dogs … , So For Some Silly Reason You Laugh … , and Tha Boy Playing With His Dog , Laughs With You … , You Glance At Him and Laugh Again , Feeling Really Unusually Weird … , Tha Boy Waves As You Notice Tha Dogs Tail Wagging … , “hmm” You Think … , “that’s weird” … , and You Feel Guilty and Dumb For Fynding Humor In What Anyone Else Would Call Stupid and Pointless … , but You Jus Learned From A Mistake … , and That’s Caring Too Much About What Other People Think … , So You laughed To Yourself … , So What Yo … , You Start To See Your Friends House … , and You Realized What Truly matters To You is Your Friends Opinion … , He/She Always Helped Out Even When You Thot Nothing Would Even Look At You Ever Again … , THAT Opinion Is What Matters … , and Then You Realize Once Again , … , You Realize If You Lost Your Friend Thus Whole Connectivity Thing Could Really Hurt … , So You Decide To Learn , To learn Your Mistakes … , and No Matter What … , Do Everything In Your Power … , In Your Power To Keep Yourself , S.A.F.E. … , So You Will be Able To Perhaps , One Day … , Wake Up In Tha Morning With A Story To Tell … ,
Damm Thus Connectivity …
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(TBC) - (MANSON WILLING)
(Boring Journal-ness Part 27) (Self-Self Part 2) (Audio Scribble Part 5)
Nvr Let Go …
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