Well Ok Minnii ,
Thank You For Your Reply ,
Boring Journal Entry (Past Note Part 1)
(EXPLICIT Content , Parental Advisory) - (Life & Death Electronic Stone Etching)
" " " So eY)e Was 15ish OR Whatever When I Got Thus Album For Christmas , Back In Those Days I Would Watch MTV and Check Out What I Thot Was Cool and Write A List Down and Wait For Christmas For Thee Albums , Went On For A Couple Years , I Always Thot Christmas Was Nyse , Family Together , opening Gifts and Deep Underneath It All A Watchful e(Y)e Making Sure We Gonna Be Ok , Now During Those T(Y)mes I Was Involved With A Church Group , Some Guy Came Up To Tha House One Summer Day and I Talked To Him and He Was Lyke “JOIN OUR CHURCH!!!” , I Was Slightly Indifferent With Thee Idea , but Thot " ■■■■ it maybe ill learn something " , I Remember One Day Being On tha Bus Going To Tha Church and Tha Fat Guy Was Pacing Down Tha Center Of Tha Bus , Back and Forth , Back and Forth , I Had A Tiny Mini Bible In My Hand and Was Scanning Throo It , While Thee Fat Guy Was Pacing All Frantically , I Got Nervous As I Seen Him Out Of Tha Corner Of My e(Y)e and Was A Little Confused , He Would Get Close To Me and Try To See What It Was I Was Reading and That Was Pretty Much Tha First T(Y)me I Locked Tightly To Tha Words In That Book , Tha Fat Guy Turned and Started Pacing Again , We All Got To Tha Church and Blah Blah Blah ,
My Mom Died Of Cancer A Few Years Back and It Was A Tough Experience ,
She Wanted To Die At Home So She Did ,
Tha Family Was Standing All Around Tha Death bed and I Held Her Hand As She Severely Clenched Her Teeth Trying To Gasp For Breath ,
She Spazed For A Few Minuetes and Was Gone Forever ,
During My Youth I Was Happy About My Mom Naught Wanting To Control My Thots and Perception on Reality ,
So When I Wrote Down " ANTICHRIST SUPERSTAR " For Christmas I Wasn’t Worried About Biblical Organized Religion Nonsense ■■■■ ,
I Wrote It Down and She Bought It Happily ,
Now As I Grabbed Tha Cd One Mourning I Had My Walkman and Sat At Thee Edge Of Tha Bed KNOWING That It Was Going To Be A Great Musical Experience and I Lissened and Focused Intensely ,
I Mean I Loved Tha Videos I Thot They Were Cool So I Knew I Was Gonna Love Thee Album ,
I Lissened and Lissened and Lissened and Lissened ,
Then Somewhere During Thee Album it Got Intense As ■■■■ and I Ripped My Headphones Off and Quietly Set Tha Walkman Down On My Radio ,
It Was As If Something Inside Me Said ,
“you are not ready for this yet” ,
So It Sat ,
and I Sat Back Down At Thee Edge Of My Bed and Stared At Tha Walkman ,
Fast-Forward Some Long Long Years and There I Am Holding My Mothers hand As She Is Slowly Dying ,
I For Tha First T(Y)me In My Life Prayed ,
and Said ,
“please grip my hand to let me know you are going to be ok” ,
There Was Nothingness ,
A Few Minuetes Latur It Was Sickness and Violence Within Thee Ending Of That Sickness ,
I Was Horrified ,
I Thot To Myself ,
" WHY THE ■■■■ WAS I ALLOWED TO SEE THIS? " ,
It Was ■■■■■■ Up To Say Tha Least ,
N E Hoo ,
There Is No Direct Point ,
I Suppose You Dear Reader Can Take Tha Story As You Want ,
I Spent Many Years Exploring Tha Universe Within many Webbings Of Continuous Lies Upon Lies Upon Lies ,
and Somehow Always Found A Way Out ,
N E Hoo (Part 2) ,
Thus Album Is One OF My Favorites … ,
Nyse Work Mr . Manson ,
Looking Forward To Tha NexXxt One … ." " " ,
So There’s A Note From My Past All Tha Way From My Past’s Past … ,
Possibly Mite Be Helpful ,
Be Careful What You Wish For …
(end note) - (TBC) …