The title basically says it all. I don’t know, my BMI is around 18.5 maybe a bit lower but I still feel fat as ****, my mind still tells me I have to lose weight.
This is so exhausting. I am scared to gain weight .
Well try to be safe, eat little bits maybe?
I am also obsessed with food, I spend all of my spare time scrolling through Instagram looking at food or looking around supermarkets at the bakery foods like brownies, flapjacks, shortbreads etc. And I have been hoarding food in my room for a year, packs of junk food that I want to eat but my brain won’t let me.
About eating little bits, yes that’s a good idea I have been trying to do that but I’m so greedy I like big portions too much.
Wow thats a lot to deal with, all that food there and can’t eat any of it. I was pretty skinny last year lost a lot of weight and still felt fat, even those at work were telling me i was skinny, so I know where your coming from. I had to start eating more was getting dizzy all the time
You sound, @Jesspresso, like you have all the classic signs of anorexia nervosa. People die from this condition. A very popular female artist/singer in the 1970’s, Karen Carpenter, died of anorexia nervosa. It is very serious. If I were you, I would tell my pdoc everything that you explained here on this website. Your pdoc should be able to help you.
I don’t have access to a pdoc . I’m from England here the mental health services are very bad. I have been waiting for therapy since January I don’t know how much longer I have to wait still.
My last mental health team (aka 1 mental health nurse) discharged me in January, they said I have schizoptypal personality traits but they didn’t diagnose me with anything.
Also here you can only get help for a eating disorder if your BMI is below 17.5, in some areas it has to be as low as 14 to get any help. So basically you only get help if you are dying . It is very bad. I have to try and cope on my own.
How did you come to accept your body? I just want to be at peace with my body and not always be thinking about loosing weight and how much I weigh.
I don’t really, I always think I’m fat , mostly cause any weight I gain goes to my tummy, I accept my body, just always want to be skinny
Aww I get what you mean. The media and even social media must have drilled it into our brains that we have to be skinny to look and feel good. These kind of thought patterns are really hard to break.
There is a woman on the internet who one of her specialties is treating eating disorders. Her name is Kati Morton. You might try Kati Morton.com. She might help.
It says the website is under construction but I think I’ve watched some of her videos on YouTube before.
So does mine. It’s hard on my back.
@Jesspresso you’re a cool interesting attractive girl I remember u it’s good to see you again. Sorry if you struggle with an eating disorder it sounds really difficult. May you get the help you need before not too long…
@Mountainman, are you a boy or a girl? Because of your name, I always thought you were male. Now, I’m doubting that.
I’m a man of course
Hello @Jesspresso it’s nice to see you back. I’m sorry it’s under these circumstances though. I have an eating problem too. Somewhere along the way I got my emotions attached to my appetite and I will either binge or not eat all depending on my mood. It’s not healthy at all. I hope you can find some help soon.
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