I do have a strange relationship with my Mum in that she helps me with everything…
I try to focus on positive things like to counter Extreme destructive food behaviours - shopping uncontrollably / driving recklessly
I feel like every day I have to do something destructive
I have been working hard on figuring out how to stay positive in everything
Actively Not harming but it’s tough and in fact doesn’t work even for a few days
I think that title has been questioned on my record, but truth found out in time that I wasn’t acting out to something no one could see, I was actually reacting to things others were doing to me that no one could, nor would try to see.
My behavior was more than justified.
I never had a problem with who or what I hurt, because it was only ever me, and the things I owned outright.
I never want to, nor try to be a pain in anyones ass, because that’s just not what I want to do, no matter what.
I have a long history with girls diagnosed with BPD tend to be really close with them for some reason. Probably Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) is a good place to start and is one of the mindful approaches so not as invasive as other therapies.
My sister is undiagnosed but all my siblings and I believe she most likely has BPD. I’m 50 years old, she’s older, and I finally made the decision last year to not have any relationship with her.
She’s incredibly destructive and manipulative. She’s hurt herself by being a drug addict/alcoholic, and she’s hurt everyone around her, especially her family. She even faked/lied about having terminal brain cancer so that my parents would pay all her bills, etc. I think about her and feel some compassion but can’t allow her to bring chaos into my life anymore.
If she had “faced her demons” and worked through her pain years ago, I believe she would be doing better now. I still hope and pray for healing for her, but because she’s so destructive I had to let her go.