I really don’t feel like being 100% honest with my pdoc because I don’t want to end up in a psych ward but I feel like the fbi bugged my house and they’ve been coming in my house for over a year now and I get followed around sometimes I type them notes on my phone since they access it sometimes I think about killing myself because they are trying to put me in prison and that’s the main thing I don’t want to tell my pdoc because if I tell him I’m thinking about hurting myself I might end up in a psych ward
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I understand you want to be guarded to save a trip to the psych ward, but you should really be honest with your doctor. 
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Be 100% honest with your doctors.
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You need to go to a psych ward. Those thoughts are not sane, and good medication will make them stop. I used to think similar things, but it took time to make them stop.
I still think I’m being watched, but not by the government anymore, now I believe it’s God and his angels watching. That belief won’t fully stop, but I do forget about it from time to time and am able to relax and live my life without feeling like I’m on a weird show or something.
Government isn’t going to put you in prison for having bad thoughts, we’re still in 2019 and brain chips aren’t even a thing yet.
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Psych wards in UK where I am are not so bad don’t know about where you are. It might be worth it to open up about this because maybe the longer you leave it the more difficult it becomes to remove those beliefs. Why do you think u will go to prison
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No I can’t go I start classes on the 22nd and I did pretty well last semester
I understand I should tell him everything but if I end up in a psych ward I won’t be able to go to my classes my next appt with my pdoc is on the 15th and I start classes on the 22nd I’ve been doing so good and I really want a degree
Because I used to use a lot of drugs and don’t really know what happened but maybe I did something bad that I could go to prison for
I have never told my drs everything.
I don’t 
think.
I have finally n recently admitted to myself I had some grandeur delusions .
Quiet a lot actually.
I do not want to write about them here nor tell my drs.
I’ve had so many delusions I can’t even remember all of them…
Mainly being attacked etc
That’s good people tell me some of my thoughts are delusions but it doesn’t feel that way to me I just feel like a completely different person than I once was but I try very hard to act “normal” when I am around my family or friends its extremely challenging when I go to class because Im always being watched and I avoid talking to anyone if it’s a class that requires participation I answer a few questions in the beginning of class so the professor does not bother me and then I withdraw completely
I think giving them a general rundown is fine.
They going to prescribe you the same medication that overlap most symptoms anyways.
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Yeah that’s what I was thinking and if it does get really bad I’d just admit myself or my parents would admit me and I don’t think my pdoc really has to know everything I’d rather just tell him enough to get my meds and that’s it I know that sounds bad but I just don’t like the idea of telling him all my thoughts
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I had to learn the hard way that I had to be careful who I told about certain thoughts. Two of my cousins and my boyfriend and that’s all. Those are the only people I have complete confidence in that they won’t take what I say to them and turn it around and use it against me.
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Yea I don’t tell them all my thoughts in every single detail either atm. It’s a bit overwhelming isnt it to do that.
I think you need to tell your pdoc how you’re feeling and be completely honest with them. I understand you want to get your degree and going to the hospital may postpone that but you’re thinking about killing yourself and how will you get a degree if you’re dead? Please consider being upfront about all this with your doctor.
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